Protected By The Promise The Divine Hand of God Maimah Karmo
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for this evening I'm glad we had the
chance to reschedule this we tried to go
live earlier and there's some internet
connections and problems but uh maimie
are mo welcome thanks for having me I'm
a copy to be here tonight is evening
with you you know everything works out
in divine order I believe that so said
this is the time and now it's going to
be an amazing amazing connection with
you and I and those who are listening
definitely a lot of people's looking
forward to the to the show and then they
went and did some research on your story
so some people have already jumped ahead
and they kind of know what you're
bringing to the table but for those who
haven't heard your story and if wherever
you want to start I say your story it's
like with me though I go on and do a
bunch of interviews and stuff and I said
alright tell me your story I'm like god
I never know where to start
there's like so many aspects of your
story it's like I'll give you the
childhood I'll give you the struggle do
I start from this point on because if I
give you my story we're gonna take up
the whole town giving my story on every
show and there's other things off my
chest yeah so where do I start
you know I always like to start with the
beginning so when I was I was I'm from
Liberia West Africa is you know the
country has been wards one for many
years but what I remember about my
childhood is that it had we had the most
beautiful rain storms and when he rains
the way the roof was you know it was
there's a little tap tap tap tap and it
was so relaxing and I would have these
beautiful chains then one night I
trained that I was having a conversation
with God and I was about eight years old
in God and I were talking about my life
and I felt very safe in the face of God
and I felt protected and
but it was designed to me that my life
would have challenges and things would
happen that I wouldn't understand
but to always remember that no matter
what happened that I would never be
alone and I'll be protected and to
always um just be myself to be me to be
the you know this person and um you know
I've always been very empathic which
means I feel people I feel things I feel
energy I almost sometimes sometimes I do
I have like clairvoyant types of you
know my mind recalls things that haven't
happened yet
or I can feel don't do this don't do
that go to the go here or call this
person like it's always been like that
but how do you articulate that when
you're eight years old and have the
language to talk about you know energy
or light or angels um and so I knew
something's going to happen in my family
in my country but I didn't know what a
when and later on that year at the war
broke out and my father was almost
killed my mother had to rest with him
so that was the first war and in 1980
and then there were two subsequent wars
in 85 and 89 and my country fled from my
parents fled the country from the war
twice um between that time I was also
hit by lightning and I had a near-death
experience where I was out of body and
um saw myself but I knew it wasn't my
time to die
so between me having to dream between
the two wars being hit by lightning and
then um at 15 years old when the last
war broke out in 1989 and my father um
wanted me to be safe and he put me on a
plane alone at 15 years old and that's
how I came to the States to the US and
you know I remember being on the plane
safely but things happen really fast and
I got to the state to America and you
know I just somehow knew that I'd be
taken care of so I've always had this
feeling of something divine being in me
and around me but not knowing I'm quite
all right take you like that amid all
the chaos the wars that plane ride that
you know people getting killed in back
home you know
all destroyed even getting hit by
lightning in facing near death I was
held at gunpoint at one point in time
but there is a sense of when those
things happened to me there is a sense
of I can only articulate now another
language to describe it is having a
bubble around me like a protective light
you know and so when things would happen
I would almost feel this like covering
around me and I get chills because I
know it's always been there and you know
things happen to me over and over and
then in in 2006 I learned I had
aggressive breast cancer and the
challenge with that was that you know
when you have somebody doing something
to you or when you have people coming at
you with guns or something external you
can run from those things but when is
something in your body that you can't
control how do you deal with that how do
you how do you practice your faith how
do you put the shield around that energy
how do you not you know tell your body
that you know you're betraying me but is
like you know call on Devine at that
time and that was a real test of faith
for me because I'd always been faithful
I'd always trusted God or whatever you
want to call it and then this touching
happened to me where my life began to
systemically fall apart and I had no
control over or so I thought over how to
manage it and I thought I was going to
die um it was then that I learned that
you know it wasn't about how long I
lived it was really about what I did
with my time I learned how to harness
energy I learned how to stretch time I
learned all these things because I was
facing you know potential death and I
thought if I could I'm gonna die the
next six month how can i how can i
educate all the things that God has been
telling me in articulate down and lisam
it into six months a year or three
months whatever and then there was this
rapid my mind opened up my soul opened
up my everything opened up and there is
rapid download of information you know
and my life just kind of changed in that
instant so that's a beginning life
yeah definitely so uh and we we talked
about it just oh we tried to go in it
briefly the last time we're alive but
talking about how like there was like a
precipice like everything it's like two
parts of your life everything that that
was before this this incident happened
this this news came to you everything
before and then after
almost like bcat like a defining moment
and you said that it was almost like
there was a different person that
existed what what changed when whenever
you got that news and how did you find
the strength to to keep going versus
giving up well I love the word you use
the purpose because we human beings have
the assumption the false belief that
were that we have to wait so this
happens for us to change whether it's a
crisis whether it's something that
pushes us towards forcing us to change
whether it is um you know some kind of
life event but every moment that we're
live we're on a precipice that we can
just leap to the next moment and change
yeah but we are used to being were uses
abilities we love we don't like to
change at all um and so you know it was
looking at the fact that I thought I had
to you know be at a certain age and God
would come to me in a in a burning bush
or the water would part for me or there
would happen that was true like I was
seeing lean away and running or unicorns
or something we're gonna [Â __Â ] you know
and I was like wait a minute you know is
that waiting for they test me to come to
me you know you don't really have things
come and you have to really tell
yourself like this is it this is now my
trying is no I don't have time to wait I
may not live long enough to see the
burning bush or squash the ocean part
whatever the heck happens and for me was
that knowingness that I had to own my
own transformation I had to own my own
divine I had to own my life and I had to
awaken into my Goddess power into my
divine power and people will people's
lives depended on my transformation you
know because I was going to address the
breast cancer treatment process
of many people who were depressed who
were scared who were in fact dying you
know I mean who were going to have more
aggressive breast cancer than I had and
I thought you know I think that people
who I was meeting also [Â __Â ]
well even were content to be miserable
in their life's just okay as it is and
the urgency that I was feeling to live
and to express myself and to connect
with God was so powerful and then there
are people who were for um you know
Stage four who were you know dying like
soon who are living that life and there
were those who were kind of like well
you know today's too hot or is too cold
or traffic thugs or I can't to make him
you know getting on my nerves I'm like
there's no time for any of this like you
really have to choose to transform and
so you know it was realizing that I was
running out of time
is realizing that I was wasting my time
and that any people depended on me
people that people's life would be
changed if I were to awaken and as I
began to awaken and began to stand in my
truth in cinema tower my life began to
expand and people I began to touch
through my work it was just really
powerful because you know I got
diagnosed in 2006 in February and within
matter of weeks I was on television and
in the next couple weeks I was at you
know speaking at Hospital centers
conferences and then than the year I was
on Oprah and people always ask me well
how did you end up in that place and
Oprah you know not once but twice but it
wasn't about me working to get to that
place it was about me awakening to be in
an energy energy sphere where things
that were up that energy level kind of
we all came together so you know when
people talk about a law of attraction or
about wanting things or about you know
when I get to this age I'll be in that
place or make these kind of friends or I
get 10,000 Instagram followers or you
know whatever that's a lot of [Â __Â ]
it's a [Â __Â ] [Â __Â ] he's my friend
it's really about you having an energy
level that's really really high and
that's vibrating where you things are
going into space where you pull towards
people towards you that are in that same
space and together you manifest and you
can change so you know literally I
changed overnight
my house in treatment ball chickens inch
in bed and I had my transformation
people were like oh you're sick I'm like
I'm not thinking you're sick you know
they were physics well but they were you
know they weren't living in and then one
side trying shifted in that space my
life began to just kind of just change
no rapidly and in a beautiful way um I
will say this that people always think
that once you arrive at a level of what
you transformed then you've arrived like
any kind of spiritual person that you
talk to you with the teacher or a
student who is really studying it's once
you begin to once you're awakened is a
good thing but also it's kind of scary
because you never can't go back to sleep
yeah and your keeps happening and it
works but it's beautiful work yeah you
can't unlearn something you know and
that's that's part of the opening up the
Pandora's Box you know and I you know
what I actually get that a lot from
people and they say man I wish I can go
back to being naive and they part of
them wants to go back to the innocence
you know and I get that a lot from like
friends who grew up in church you know
and they would just go and just be told
what to think be told how to feel be
told when to do this and that and it and
it was something special to them but
once they started researching or
something like that or getting into some
other things they're like man it's not
as cookie-cutter as we were told you
know and so it takes that innocence away
from them
and they're like man I wish I can go
back I wish I can go back but it's part
of the journey like you were naive when
you were there there were there's
lessons that you had to learn that you
didn't know and then you had to actually
go through the trials and the
tribulations or seeing the dark side of
people or of life in general going
through the dark side to be able to
appreciate the light and I think that um
that all the trials and things like that
are killed
and our lives are carefully calculated
and and we find ourselves in the end if
if we don't get bitter if we don't let
bitterness sit in we think in the end
we'll find ourselves being victors
instead of victims and I think that's
then that that's your story it's awesome
so it was just like an over overnight
thing
like you just made up your mind like I'm
not gonna let this thing beat me I got a
here's what happened so I was laying in
bed I was angry at God
I was angry as hell I was like I've done
everything right I prayed I volunteered
I'm a good person you know I gave money
to church five I do all those things why
am i why do I have breast cancer why am
i blame could maybe die and my daughter
is only two years old my whole life's
one only apart so I laid him I was I was
in bed I was just pissed and so I got in
the shower because I was just I was sick
that day I was throwing up and I just
fell to my knees and I fell in a fetal
position
you know just literally like you know
head down the shower was like you know
feeding on my head you know I was I just
crying I was done I was a god I'm done I
can't do this anymore I'm exhausted
physically I'm exhausted emotionally I'm
exhausted spiritually I mean Boston is
Lee I have nothing left to give anybody
um and you know and then I got out of
the shower my mom came and got me I
looked in the mirror and there was
something in my eyes that I couldn't
define that was just like burning like a
fire and a guidance dad and I said god I
don't know if you even exist anymore
whatever you call yourself
but if you do exist I want you to show
me yourself I want when I want when I
get up in the morning I want to be
transformed so if you exist and I dare
you if you don't you won't show up and
if you do he'll show up I want to be
even if I die I want you to pour
something into me that will awaken the
mean to the person that you want me to
be but if I get up in the morning and
I'm transformed I'm going to give my
life in service to helping other people
awaken and transform their lives other
breast cancer patients you know people
anybody the world and so I went to bed
really not believing that could happen I
thought it was I was just mad and angry
at God and I'm kind of just saying like
f you you know and went to bed got up in
the morning and I'm recall getting up
and I was like I feel different this
morning and I felt like I saw light I
felt like I been cleansed I saw this
energy running through my veins that I
could not explain and literally like I
gone to bed feeling like a victim
feeling overly like burden feeling like
um this is just huge challenge in front
of me and I wake up in the morning
feeling like oh my god I'm gonna I can
do this I got this I'm going to change
the world and so you know my face and my
me really really wanting to connect with
divine like even threatening him I was
begging threatening cursing I know
asking in that place of me wanting it so
badly
my challenge turned into a catalyst you
know what I mean but you have to want to
connect you have to ask you have to
speak you have to learn be open and the
people have spent a lot of time you know
doing watching television doing pastimes
they're going to school they're going to
work so cleaning their homes washing
their cars they're having fun how much
time to be spend in our quest for our
connection with divine energy and so for
me I've been looking for a long time
I've been seeking and studying but in
that place of feeling like so desperate
where that connection with God you know
the universe can feel that when you want
it to connect that deeply because you're
seeking it with all your heart all your
mind all your soul everything about you
is everything is like a line towards
that connection and that's what happened
for me and my life has just changed
forever
um you know and it was really amazing
because once it happened I didn't know
how I would change the world but I knew
that didn't have to know how I knew that
I had access to define some partnerships
to find collaboration divine love divine
support divine everything you know when
you connect with God you can feel like
hey listen I want this and you help me
out right here
you know what do I do and you whispered
it's like it's like give everything at
your fingertips and you have to just
allow and it just cut it manifest and
there is a waiting for things to happen
there is spiritual maturity that has to
happen but you know for me it became a
lot less of me pushing and it's kind of
allowing learning to allow things to
happen
yeah because before you know that you're
just like China will things to happen
people get into like magic and ritual or
they're trying to like make something
happen but
when you just let go and let God or
learn to tap in and tune in and get into
that flow get with the creative flow of
the universe you find that you don't
have to will anything to happen you just
have to show up essentially it's really
cool that you say that and talking about
like it wasn't that like you had a
burning bush encounter or somebody came
into your life or this preacher came to
you and told you this or whatever or God
even showed up you know knocking at your
door you went to God you went to the
source yourself and it was something
that's already within you that you had
to pursue because people are projecting
their consciousness outside of their
bodies they're waiting for that the
button that that divine moment they're
waiting for somebody to give them an
opportunity they're waiting for somebody
to retweet their article or whatever the
case is when all you have to do is go
within yourself people want to become
something one day I'm gonna be this one
day I'm gonna be healed one day I'm not
gonna have breast cancer anymore versus
going within and I'm already healed I'm
gonna embody that I'm gonna walk in it
quit telling me I'm sick I'm healed but
telling me that I'm no good quit telling
me that I'm this quit telling me I'm
that and then you change the narrative
yourself because all the desires and
wants that you have they're already
within and we have to go within which is
where the kingdom of heaven is to
manifest that stuff and it's so so
beautiful and the scripture says that
the servants of the Lord must not strive
so it puts an end of striving and trying
to manipulate and make things happen
which the hustle and the bustle of the
world like that's how they get ahead
they have to manipulate people a lot of
people do shady business deals and stuff
like that in order to get ahead but when
you're in tune with the creative flow of
the universe you don't have to lie you
just have to go with the flow and it's
beautiful when you learn that because
everything from that point out comes
with that and it seems like that's what
what your precipice was when you found
that out that I'm gonna be taken care of
regardless whoever whatever to got me to
this point is gonna is gonna see me
through the rest of my life whatever I'm
supposed to do
I'm supposed to touch so that's awesome
that you you embody that that that
meditation that going within and
connecting like that it's beautiful it
was very powerful because I remember
when I when I had that epiphany that
morning and I was sitting there I
started crying crying you know when you
feel God in you for the first time
really and you are aware of it or of him
hit it whatever it's an overwhelming
feeling it's like a beautiful feeling
and I was like crying like God what why
didn't where have you been you know I
didn't know where were you and the
answer I got was that I was with you all
along like he was there he he it was
there all the time
I just wasn't oh my eyes weren't open
you know did I have friends on one of my
girlfriends you know she's been married
for like I don't know 15 years and after
the first five years her husband and her
were always fighting she's always mad at
him he could do no right you know and
they were fighting constantly and then
you know there almost got divorced and
um it was just bad for many years and
then one day she had this powerful shift
he went to this retreat she she has some
amazing epiphanies and and then she said
to me after this she's I mean I realized
that I had the best husband the whole
time he was wonderful he was working
really hard for me in the family he's
doing all he could I couldn't see him
you know what I mean so she had this
amazing gift but she couldn't see it and
it happens with those sexes are people
you could have something really
beautiful in front of you but if your
eyes are looking towards something else
you can't see what you already possess
inside your heart you know we're formed
with this unique to find love and
connection and then for some reason we
think that we have to find something
outside of us into finding something
biggest to make us um to validate us you
know the likes of repost this man this
woman these things to make us feel
better we acquire and acquire and
acquire and we make our lives
noisy and then you know when I realized
my my my life is shifting like that what
I what I've learned was to pull back to
pull back to find quiet to connect with
myself to allow God to speak to me
to empty my head of people and things
that were distracting so I could have
this energy this spiritual feeding of me
constantly and that is just an extremely
when you're in that place is so very
powerful when you allow God to do the
work for you and to connect because you
know when you if you ever watch a child
being born that the baby comes out of
the mother's woman it's not breathing
and then they slap it and it takes a
deep breath it's like God you know
breathing into the inter that his breath
is entering the child's body and that
breath is life and you're you we were
you become you have God enter your body
your physical being and then you're born
and your begin spawning and growing the
world and you forget you know how you
came to be you forget you know who
defines you who created you informed
your body you know every single part of
your body is - my only created by with
one first one energy like forming yours
from your hair follicle to your toes and
you know so when you think of life like
that it really helps you remember that
you don't have to go far to find the
story you were born with the source it's
just remembering it and connecting to it
and staying with it on a daily basis
connecting with the breath that was
there since the beginning you know that
yeah I like to say you know I'm saying
to the breath of God that breathed
everything into existence is that
pranayama that animates all life and
that's all we have to do it really just
take a few minutes and focus on our
breathing the scripture says to uh I
says peace be still and know that I'm
God so just get in the stillness of the
moment and focus on that breathing and
you're connecting with God and it gets
really deep too many look in the
scriptures like Jesus went and he
breathed upon his disciples and they
received the gift of the Holy Spirit
when he did that the breath is so
important and that's where the life is
it's taking it at that time and focusing
on on the breathing to make things
happen it's really all within to the
power of the now moment
that's where God's at and God's not you
know he's not anywhere outside of you
but when you focus and you go within and
you're able to experience that
that force that created everything
everything exists and in that that force
cares about you and I do like to call
them you know God the Father I like I
like that aspect of God as a father
especially when you were just talking
about how like you approach life and you
have a cool idea and you just go to God
hey God I would like to try this out you
know I would like to you know make this
happen
try this endeavor you don't have to
force anything you get with the Creator
who orchestrates everything perfectly
you get with that creator and it's like
a father wanting to spoil it's kids
wanting to do good things for its kids
give its kid good gifts to make them
happy you know I'm sad but also letting
them learn letting them learn how to
walk T but they're gonna fall down
they're gonna scrape themselves they're
gonna hurt their knee you know put them
on a bike hope you know they got a
helmet on you push them and hopefully
they're gonna keep it straight they're
gonna they're gonna crash they're gonna
get into some situations you know but as
a father a loving energy a loving force
in and you know it goes with the mother
too but it's that there's a there's a
connection there to understand that the
creative force of the universe airs
about you you're the thoughts you know
your depression your fears everything
man and it takes you to a new level when
you embody that and know it yeah I'm
glad you hit on depression part people
are living right now you know I'm more
stressed more anxious more depressed
than ever we're seeing we're hearing
about more suicides
yeah nom people are feeling very
disconnected from source you know we
have more communication than ever we
have in faster data than ever we have
more access than ever but we're actually
more we're less accessible we're less
connected and we have less information
about other people are pretending a lot
they're hiding who they are and they're
not really um they're too busy to really
connecting and with themselves first of
all that in other people second and then
God you know and so you know one of the
things that really was powerful to me
with my work when I began was that you
know my empathic
connection with people deep in so much
and people that would talk to poor sick
and it was I would sit with them they
would have these ships you know and
their energy from feeling alone to
feeling more connected and the more I
talk with them about sharing about
opening up about shifting their mindset
about realizing they were never alone
they began to change you know so I began
to think about how we how do we even
language you know sadness why don't we
language depression heavy language
anxiety there's this label around being
that we can talk about them it's label
around people think when you were alone
too much it's that you know like we know
Jesus Christ was alone all the time you
can retreat to find himself you know and
we're so I think even with us in this
society we're so busy I'm getting
together sometimes are being whatever we
keep putting this stuff on
we don't even find time to just truly
connect with ourselves and so I think in
terms of connecting with people is
important to truly connect with people
but also it's connected ourselves to
stop and give ourselves time to mean
with God and to to talk to him um I have
some friends of mine who were going
through um you know whether it's
depression or a lot of sadness and stuff
like that and feeling very alone and one
of the things that I coach people
through and my friends can suit it is
realizing it's okay to be sad sometimes
okay to have a time when you don't feel
connected with other people when you
looked at yourself for a deeper
connection looking to God for deeper
connection and you know realizing that
you can never really be alone you know
and sometimes you know I found that when
I had been very sad or depressed is when
I and when I pull away to restore to let
God work on me but there have been times
when I've been very very dealt in my
life when I was going through breast
cancer treatments and I've had other
things happen where lost friends of mine
where I thought I don't want to be here
anymore I can't live with this heaviness
of life people dying of cancer and
suicide other things is was so heavy on
me and I pulled back
I learned to sit with my feelings you
know in real
I think that I didn't have to act on
anything it was okay to be anxious it's
okay to be scared okay to be depressed
those things are all their human
emotions and like God and work around
that let God do the work I didn't have
to do anything you know or even tell
people you know also better in a week or
a month or whatever and then in those
times of me going through
deep sadness is when God really began to
change how he and I related we became
closer he mentioned how gods like a
father he wants you to come to him when
you love somebody and they see have a
stare sad or feeling bad and they go
someplace else and you want to hold him
tight how does it make you feel you feel
bad right and so I learned to stop
labeling my feelings when I felt bad and
saying you know I don't like how I feel
right now maybe God wants me to just
come to him and rest in him and I've had
some amazing things happen and when I
learned to rest in God and to just allow
God to enfold me in his arm I've come
out of the situation more connected with
myself I've come out of them more more
is more loving of myself and other
people and more understanding and
honestly I've come out of times like
that where I've been very depressed or
scared of life feeling less that I had
to work so hard because in those times
when you connect with God you realize
that the burdens we feel is us feeling
we have to carry life ourself we don't
have to do that yeah yeah and so if I
call it have a friend is going to
something like you know what if you're
down just don't act on it please don't
do anything crazy just invest in
self-care you know love yourself get
some oils pray you know I'm sick of
going to retrieve whatever do some Reiki
you know meditate you know whatever you
need to do to take care of yourself and
let God work on you and it's a powerful
what can come out of that time cuz when
you pull into that light and you let God
do the work then what happens when you
come out of that cocoon the chrysalis
shed and you can be butterfly butterfly
that about it can change and transform
is doing really beautiful
um so it is very powerful when you begin
the spiritual task how you know things
epic things that are heavy or burdensome
or that somebody who's not connected
with God um my see as a you know too
hard to bear this is this thing is too
much to bear
it changes me please you know what you
got there because you don't have to bear
a lot your stone when you have that
godness in your life all the time yeah I
really I really do think that our
thoughts create our reality and if we
believed it would begin to embody it and
walk in it and then just that simple
fact to know that you're not alone when
you felt alone your whole life I
remember when I got into church and gave
my life to God back in 98 I was so
depressed man I was like you know
thinking about suicide all the time and
just depressed and alone and when when I
when I made that confession and came
into relationship with God or while I
was conscious of that relationship with
God I never felt alone after that I
would be by myself and I would always
feel like God was there wanting to talk
like like you would talk to a friend you
know what I'm saying and just I feel
this way I'm going through this you know
so that it speaks so much for people who
were depressed or people who were lonely
men that you had that you have a God
there that cares about you
one thing you were talking about as far
as like the depression or anything that
you're feeling you're angry you're hurt
you know you're bitter whatever it is to
embody that and not get into this place
to act like it you that you're not
depressed or you're not sad or whatever
the case is and so I think I think it's
kind of you know ghost was saying with
what dealing with disease is the fact
that it's dis-ease within the body and
we have to process our emotions and
coming from like I come from like the
evangelical background Church and stuff
and they would tell you to act don't
admit that you're depressed
you know just say that you're not
depressed and it's okay versus like
getting to the root of it no I'm
depressed because all the people I have
in my life are using me or upset because
of this and I can't do that or whatever
but to get to the bottom of it
understand like what's causing that
stuff what's causing that dis-ease
within my body versus acting like it's
not there so that's powerful when we
could just be ourselves and not and and
essentially it's I mean essentially be
vulnerable which is the big word right
to be okay with that
it's okay to not feel good sometimes
right everybody I know who has been
depressed in or feeling suicidal what
the biggest thing is is they are afraid
to let them mask off they have a mask on
all the time and it's freaking
exhausting but when you have to have a
mask on
with your husband with your wife with
your parents with your friends you can't
leave your room without a mask on
because if they want to know if you're
okay are you okay are you feeling better
and if you're not feeling better they
want to make you feel better and then if
they're teenagers we're going to school
they can't be the truth of who they are
I have to put this mask on for eight to
ten hours a day of seeing okay then if
you look in reason it have to go see you
know they can't really express their
truth and that's why I love your name
Jessica because people really have to be
able to manifest their truth in the
truth of who they are whether they're
feeling good or bad I think the labels
on our emotions are not a good thing and
people can really express themselves and
be authentically who they are you know
they're accepted you know whether
they're up or down whatever that means
they can then feel down feeling it
worked through the feeling with support
and love and then get through that
process um you know I've had several
friends who have committed suicide and
at the end the day they just felt like
it was too much of a burden that they
were burdening people around them with
their sadness and their heaviness or
they felt there were it was too much to
keep hiding their feelings all the time
why they felt alone that they couldn't
see what really couldn't connect with
them so I feel like it's really
incumbent upon us who are all of us to
allow people that we love to be
themselves whatever that
means to us and you know to love people
as they are and love is is no label love
is no judgment love is you know I will
be in that place with you I will have an
energy in a space for you wherever you
are and people need to hear that once
they feel loved without condition um you
can really change someone's life you
know by helping them to feel accepted um
you know I think that with my work you
know I know if I told you I do these
workshops called I manifest and I
manifest really talked about people
manifesting you know where they are
being authentically where they are as
they're getting to where they want to be
light so with dr retreats and you
mentioned reiki and stuff like that and
and those who were I know you coach a
lot of people one-on-one coaching and
stuff too so with someone who is giving
back now and I'll have our friends who
do who do similar things and you know
you even hear a lot a lot of this about
like in Christian deliverance ministry
and stuff like like the real deal people
who do the Exorcist and stuff they say
like when you're dealing with people's
dirt and their trauma and the stuff
they're just confessing off of them it
takes a toll on you and and and there's
people who who do this type of work and
if they're not careful they're they're
they have all this other baggage they
begin to carry the weight that they're
helping these people through and and you
know they're helping these people work
out of it but it's still like attached
on to them but for people who are doing
similar work or spiritual therapy with
others what would you say is a good way
that that they could reset or they could
kind of get clean from all of this other
other stuff that's going on in their
life or helping people you know saying
deal with their trauma
well one thing I would say is that you
have to make sure that you are protected
you're in a space you have to make sure
that you protect yourself by letting God
do the work when you was filming that
you're the energy so before I would do
work it I would assume that I was the
one doing the work and when I did that I
would get trained I would be tired I
would be like exhausted and then what I
began to do was um I began to realize
that I am only a conduit and as a
conduit I what I can do is make sure my
body gets a lot of rest a lot of water a
lot of food a lot of cleansing have a
clean safe I live out in the boondocks
where there's trees and grass and water
and a lot of freshness and clean you
know just God stuff but I let God do the
work and and I honor my body and so one
of the things I do know one thing in the
morning I have a ritual where it's you
know like an hour a prayer meditation
reiki angel card readings meditation I
go for a run I train it's all about
getting my mind and body spirit aligned
you know for the day and then when I get
out there began doing the work I always
call on God to to work through me and so
it's not me doing the work um I think
it's important to also have you know
when you have a morning ritual hi
rituals is nighttime to to kind of
cleanse your mind of what happened that
day cleanse your body and I take little
breaks throughout my day to just relax
and just to connect with God so I don't
just meditate in the morning I meditate
throughout the day and I connect with
God throughout the day and I just when
I'm my work is very spiritual and it's a
lot of is very intense so this times
when I get tired so like today I had
back to back to back you know coaching
sessions and meetings and I felt I kind
of felt like I needed assistance just
you know rest and so I just I cancelled
of one of my meetings and I said I'm
really sorry can we do it tomorrow and I
said enough I just said okay oh my god
take care of me right now I need to just
let my body
um relax and let him pour into me and
then I I gave myself permission to to
rest and so I tell people all the time
ask ask yourself what you need
ask yourself how you feel it's all about
how you feel if you don't feel aligned
if you feel like you're overwhelmed and
feel like you're doing too much
then just pause and give yourself
whatever you need to to clean your at
your energy in restoring your body and
my spirit and then and then reconnect
you with your work so it's letting God
you the work honoring your body and
giving yourself the space to be restored
sounds great
another question for you what is the
Unicorn deck you're the corn deck so
it's um if the deck of affirmations that
I create it and it's really about
manifesting I know the law of attraction
really take right now and I love that
but I believe you can really manifest
things like this you don't have to pull
things towards you you can just like God
can just manifest right so I believe in
using these affirmations to manifest the
truth of where I am and so I prayed
about it and the deck is like about
biggest 32 cards and each one has a
different affirmation of what you want
to manifest with manifesting a manifest
love or manifest divine a quarter or a
manifest an epic life but you know
people kind of to get the cards they buy
the deck and every morning II kind of
pray over the deck and ask God to help
them help them pull a card that they can
have their an intention on that day they
pull the card excuse me in the card
whatever they pull helps to help to help
them to have that intention throughout
the day it really is about you know we
talked like a from adversity and the
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you know having practices that are you
can apply throughout the day because you
can start your day Sarris in very calm
very together and then something pops up
pops up at you and you're like all over
the place and all stressed out and so
having things that are unicorns deck or
having an accountability partner or
having a practice of even having alarms
on they could have an alarm on my phone
every hour my alarm goes off and it
reminds me to stop
Just Cause that our at the top of the
hour to meditate for one minute
no it's having the intentional thing to
remind you of like okay so I just cut
you off you want to like yell at them
and curse at them
or somebody had their family canceled
last minion you're almost there you know
the unicorns that helps to keep you in
tension of the seniors your intentions
in America's peace that day and your
whole day goes to hell in a handbasket
how do you stay aligned with that energy
of having peace when things are
happening around she was really keeping
you helping you to stay centered and and
one with your intention of what you want
to manifest that day that's awesome I'm
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out oh let me ask you this yeah um if
you could go back and change anything
would you any other stuff that happened
any of the stuff you went through would
you choose the easier route would you
have handled things differently
I wouldn't change anything I would
change nothing I would change nothing a
tie I would change nothing I wouldn't
change you know I wouldn't change cancer
I wouldn't change it's years I cried I
wouldn't change the girl I was I
wouldn't change what that left me I
wouldn't change friends'll abandoned me
I wouldn't change being held at gunpoint
I wouldn't change they hit by lightning
I wouldn't change any of it because you
know the beautiful thing about struggle
and challenge is that you know we don't
want it in life but you know human
nature is that of wanting to be where we
are we don't want to change and have the
false idea that we're human and we're
more than human we're defying and so I
look at the person I was
that's I know years ago and the person I
am now and nothing has changed about
that person except that I choose to come
out of her you know what I mean so I
tell people all the time like the person
that you're awakening for being you
already you already were that person you
were just asleep you just you know you
weren't surface yet and you didn't you
didn't give the person an opportunity to
really manifest somebody didn't push you
up whether it was a struggle challenge
whatever but when these things happen if
forces you to have to change it forces
you to look to God if forces you to want
to do better be better awakened when you
think you don't have time left and you
like I did I think I thought I have six
months a year to whatever I'm going to
die the kind of cancer I had had a
targeted treatment for it and still
doesn't have any treatment so that kind
of cancer I thought I didn't have enough
time in that desire to find God forced
me to awaken and so you know I wouldn't
change what happened to me but what I
will change is what I have done is I
have this insane desire to help other
young girls but a woman in men
you awaken sooner and faster like
imagine our kids were struggling right
now with you know you know this epidemic
of anxiety depression suicide feeling a
lonely if they had tools like this like
we have now
they knew they were never alone they
have God with them all you know all the
time you know whether it's peer pressure
going on whether it's whatever it is
that these kids are dealing with you
know if they had access to light energy
enter Reiki into meditation yoga prayer
accessing light you know calling wonder
angels on God how would the world be
different in terms of our healing how
would they all be different if you know
you know that who are our leader so
we're doing things that we don't or may
not be proud of how would they be
different if they had access to these
tools you know so it's been become a
passion of mine to really ensure that
anybody I touched through physical touch
through energy work through this video
camera the internet and feel the love
and feel and learn about the tools that
they have access to through my coaching
whatever the change and where they live
their life is to have more hope to have
more trust in divine intervention and to
and to have to be filled with a quest to
learn and transform their life I'm with
you on that I wouldn't I wouldn't change
it at all but when you're going through
it it's another story
I can't tell you how it was her to God
like Colin what kinds of bad names I
can't see on your show but I'd be like
yeah and you know like this blog you
know like um it's just being open and
being vulnerable I mean what if you was
to keep that in and act like you don't
feel that way and you you'd have you be
someone who like you talked about
keeping that mask on even around God
like your Creator like you can't be who
he is created you to be so you have to
like act like you're something else nope
I'm not mad at you
nope no I'm pissed man I'm man we need
to have some words why did you create me
why did you and you know and I and I
hear your story and there's some
other people I remember hearing that in
church it was so like revolution Angola
somebody cuts god out we heard like our
worship leader cuts God out but he
talked about this breakthrough that came
when he did because he was open they
lost the child you know and he just told
God how he felt and got it off his chest
but you have to walk around and act like
you don't feel that way no God wants you
to be open and be express it let him
know how you feel and that's how you get
it off your chest if you keep it in its
gonna stay there and it's gonna produce
dis-ease in the body in your spiritual
life it's gonna pour out into your
relationships
all men are this all all women are that
you can't trust these type of people all
about all of these preconceived notions
until you deal with it speak it out the
Bible says confession like when we
confess it when we get it out we can
find healing no matter what it is man
confess it don't hide it man die get it
out whatever you got to do yeah I think
they're so important they're just cool
by Romi
the poet Rumi I love it does the wound
is where the light enters yeah the wound
is where the light enters and I you know
when I first write I'm like what the
hell's that you know but I love it
because it's like you know when you're
wounded sometimes is when you open up
you break because you can you have
adjust your facade all that stuff that
you put you take your time to cultivate
to cover up yourself you know you you
can't keep it up anymore and then you
allowed like to enter I also think that
sometimes things happen people who are
actually quite powerful spiritually
because God knows you can help people
through your ministry you know I was
told since I was young that I something
important if you've got told me when I
was 8 years old
but I thought Who am I to speak in
public Who am I to be an author Who am I
to be like I'm not any of any importance
no minded speak about God's people who
work to anybody and I didn't pursue that
path in my life I thought I would do
other things that I thought I could do
that I was good I was good to doing so
God wants us to go down this path and
we're like well no I think I'm not good
enough for that I don't need to go down
that path I have my own plan and
sometimes you know things have to kind
of
us in our tracks like you know God stops
all on the road to Damascus yeah you
gods like air man he's like no no no I
things to do I'm not good enough fall
down you can handle that you have
somebody else was more important and
then he keeps calling on you and because
you have a gift you know like if anyone
told me I had a gift of seeing the
people of coming to help people through
my testimony up you know the coaching
whatever I was like I didn't feel good
enough and you know when you don't allow
God to use you in a way that he's meant
to use you he will there you will be
stopped in your tracks you can turn
around what do you want to or not
what are you have to be force whether
you have to be begging him look at you
and talk to you and so I just I tell me
what to take it easy route don't fight
it just don't buy this you know make on
your sensor make the him or her your
place to go um and you know in all your
challenges and all your struggles you
know just I always ask you know whatever
I'm feeling god what would you have me
to do with this feeling what would you
have me do with this Nate with these
people
Oh Jackie's doing with the situation you
know I I don't claim to have all the
answers but I do find a lot of answers
when I go to God in prayer or in
stillness you know or in solitude when I
take time away to are we treat quite a
bit people my friends will use so many I
might just turn my phone off for the
weekend or just not want to talk for a
week or just kind of not want to see
people but sometimes God to call on me
to just be alone for a day for a week or
a week at a time per month and not leave
my house or not just just not goal just
have quiet time where I just to let him
feed on me and and whatever it is I'm
doing you know I find that when I come
out of that phase of retreat whether
it's you know a minute of praying at the
hour on the top of the hour whether it's
morning meditation or a nightly prayer I
come out of that with more energy with
answers with something that didn't have
before and you know retreated as always
he has it you have to go
where to retreat to God you can just you
know stop and go like this and take a
breath right take him in take her
whatever you call God's it's up and you
build your church right here breathe and
the flying got in that please and that's
a powerful it's just powerful think
about that you can just go like this
inhale and then you find peace you know
when it's down simple and it isn't
always easy to get to that place but I
find a lot of peace comes to me in this
time it always works so with all this
talk of retreats and going off by
yourself and all this praying that
you're doing we got a question in the
chat room here somebody wants to know
have you ever had any other worldly
experiences with angels or any type of
other beings along your journey
I have and I have I have you know so
when I was hit by lightning I did have
another out of body experience and that
was really quite powerful to see
yourself Pacific I got hit by lightning
and I was out and that's my first time
really like I don't get myself and I was
like on the ground just laying there and
that was my first idea the body I mean
like seeing that you know like I'm here
in and there's my body and I could I
could feel but I wasn't myself um what
other time is that um the people who I
love who passed on that have
communicated with me in different ways
where I can see them and talk with them
and you know I used to frighten me at
first so I would tell them to stop
talking to me
but next but I also just imagine Sierra
thing and often times I do call on my
angels and guides to just give me
answers which is a powerful ways to
harness energy um also I mentioned you
know one of the reasons why the idea of
people going through depression and
suicide is something that really strikes
with me is that I had a friend a very
good friend commit suicide and it was
very hard for me to deal with it and
there were no answers um I didn't have a
chance to know why what happened and you
know so I actually was going to a
retreat to she's just going to get away
to kind of come to terms with my
emotions of grief around his death and I
was going to this retreat I got lost and
my iPad died my phone died and my GPS
wasn't working so imagine you're in this
dark place going to this retreat and
nothing's working and I was just you
know scared and I said God please send
an angel to take me to where I need to
go I don't know how to get there I'm
scared and I got to where I was going it
was like five minutes from where it was
I don't know how I got there
and when I got in there somebody in the
room looked at me it was they were
startled
and the woman who looked at me as she
kind of scared her and she walked away
from me and she left the room
and I found out the next day that she
was scared because when I walked in the
room there was an angel that was with me
that brought me to the place safely so
they hope the cavern and the next day I
was asked to speak with her by the woman
having a retreat and the lady told me
that they enjoyed that brought me to the
retreat was the angel of my friend who
had taken his life and she I didn't
believe that at first I was like isn't
that funny don't do this to me I can't
I'm I'm in a broken place I don't want
people to don't manipulate my feelings
and she says no she told me his name and
she related conversations we taught
alone in this very office I'm sitting in
now and so that was really terrible for
me it really really you know showed me
in a deeper sense that how powerful
connection can be and so she and she and
I communicated through her and um I knew
that you know when you love somebody and
you love God and you have this
connection with energy you can tap into
things like that people and situations
and my friend
you know he's now passed on you know
I've released him he you know you you
know we don't communicate that much
anymore like that way but I needed to
feel him I needed to have some answers
and it was powerful that you know I
called the God to guide me and I'm
excited in a Jamin you know we had that
resolution of you know that conversation
we never had before he passed away so I
I often do even today every day I in the
morning is part of my rituals in the
morning I do my angel card readings and
then I sit quietly and I ask God in
angels to to come tune and to not just
give me the card readings in the morning
but to draw my day you know whispered to
me through words through something I see
like a you know just an odd looking for
this beautiful
through the number is one one IC 1111
every day one at 111 I mean four four
four has been happening for a year and
so I know that when I see signs of
certain things and feel certain energies
to be aware that God comes to us
different ways and to be aware of them
of the way it becomes to us whether it's
you know God or angels or our guys but I
think happens to me all the time war is
just it is quite interesting and I used
to be afraid of it I was getting on a
plane once I was going to travel yeah
one time and I just booked a flight I
was like you know going to this retreat
but I was afraid because I had a vision
of a plane crash and I didn't know what
to do and I didn't book the flight and
something happened that wasn't wasn't a
good ending there was a plane accident
so you know in the things that happened
to me aren't bad all the time there's
some things that are quite amazing you
know that where I can they're like
they're like gods like go here I call
this person do this and something
beautiful happens that happens more
often but people have to understand they
have access to these powers these
energies this all the time it's not just
someone like me I've been studying it
since I was a child so once you believe
you know I think there's a cool guy
right Wayne Dyer that says you'll see it
when you believe it so when you believe
you have access to God and angels and
guides and you believe it and you look
for it and you seek it those things
become like second nature the company
just come to you so long answer to a
short question yeah no that's beautiful
that's awesome to so many different
places we can go with that that's
awesome
like in the world they teach us that you
know if I if I see it then I believe it
if you can show me then I believe it but
us of the spirit would say if I believe
it then I will see it if I believe it
then I'll receive it and in our faith we
can you know it's understanding faith
and Jesus taught all about faith and you
see him teaching and was just random
people who believe something with all
their heart and he's okay it's that's
done you believed it you got it
take it stand on it and that's that's
what with us whether you want to call it
you know I'm saying the law but
traction it's believing in something
that that you can't see right now that's
what the faith is it's a having faith in
evidence in something that we can't see
right now and and whatever that may be
whatever your faith as the ability to to
hold you at that level like if you need
like the same faith that you need for
God to pay a $100 light bill is the same
weight you're gonna need the same faith
to pay a five thousand dollar mortgage
on a house or something something crazy
you know I'm saying some it's that faith
of knowing that you can't see it but you
believe it and the opposite of faith
they said isn't doubt the opposite of
faith isn't doubt the opposite of faith
is thinking that you have it all figured
out and you can do it all and you
understand how it works and you have it
but it's that ability to be able to
trust in God and that's beautiful you
share that I remember I have a lot of
people ask me because I deal with a lot
of people come out of Christianity and
they're getting more into spirituality
but they're still keeping their faith in
Christ but it's just leaving the
structure the structure of religion and
so that that comes up a lot talking to
the dead should I contact the dead are
they contacting me it's really strange
because right when I like before we went
live my my cousin hit me up and we lost
a cousin and I'm spoke at his funeral
and he said hey this was just before we
went laughter hey I think he's contacted
me I'm sitting here on the porch and
he's been talking to me for the last 10
minutes telling me that it's okay and he
that I'm gonna live on through him and
stuff like that and I was just like wow
then we went live so really interesting
and when you approach it from a
Christian perspective there's this it's
just knowing there of what's called the
great cloud of witnesses in the Bible
and this something is talking about like
all of those who have come before us or
watching over us and it's the great
cloud of witnesses and we look at Jesus
when Jesus went into his place of prayer
and meditation he was meeting with those
who had went before him the first time
that we get to actually look in and see
what Jesus does when he it's alone with
his father for hours on end he's meeting
with people who so-called Dead Moses and
Elijah
he's meeting with them people go in and
they see these people clothed in white
garments these spirits there that are
there meet meeting with him and so
there's even a movement in Christianity
right now on some of the friends circles
the charismatic stuff were there they're
openly talking about these leaders in
these prophets and people who have come
before and it's being embraced a little
bit more by Christendom that they're
like I said the prophets who have come
before them are meeting with them
showing up in hotel rooms and guiding
them and throwing up with Jesus and all
of these crazy things so it's not that
far out of the realm of thinking I think
it deserves a little bit of attention
even from a Christian perspective let me
ask you this favorite go ahead I think
energy energy never dies never dies so
you know if we can call on Jesus Christ
or God why can't we call them somebody
who we love deeply who's no longer with
us you know I think there's something to
be said if people are calling on people
to manipulate things or do something
that's sad or something is dark that's
different but if you're calling on
something somebody that you love that
you have faith in who's a leader an
elder for guidance for strength for eyes
that can see more than you can see you
know just argit has on a deeper love or
to open your heart to see more than you
can see in your human body that's a
beautiful thing you know so it's really
about your intention to connect with
people when I connect with any energy
it's never to tell me the future is
never to tell me you know or to change
somebody's behavior or to do something
bad it's always to help me to have eyes
and see you know even when I can see
things that may not happen it's more of
a feeling of like don't do this just you
know this might not be safe but again
it's about like I have a belief about
time that time is really not really how
we see time time and we see time is
being structured I don't see time that
way so if you can think about yourself
if you are an energy field that before
time and after time you can kind of feel
things sometimes people with happen and
that's not an occult thing is actually
it's about energy and how you moster of
life so I'm really you know I love I'm
guys I was born to the Christian faith
but I'm very spiritual my mother is not
very happy with my my transition am i
walking with a sense but I think that
you know with Christianity there were so
much skills and judgment and you know I
have to die and be crucified to live I
don't think that's what God wants for us
to suffer anyone's Rusted to be free and
to be loved and to absolve ourselves of
all these feelings of burden and so I
think that Christianity is has it's
wonderful in terms of what it's done for
people also it has things that if they
people feel very you know persecuted or
burdened and so I choose to the probable
path of love and let the other stuff
just kind of tell it thank you and
goodbye I believe you hold on to the
stuff that's serving you right I mean
why not you know I'm saying why hold on
to the stuff that's her and dimming you
or hurting you or trying to bring you
down or whatever the case is I wanted to
just kind of run this by you just to see
what you think maybe you know maybe
there's something there maybe there's
not we we talked on one of the last
episodes of a buddy of mine we've been
discussing us a lot lately actually but
um something known as shadow people and
and a lot of people have recalled you
know waking up in the middle of the
night and a being being in a room like a
dark silhouette or waking up with
something on your chest and his stories
and and paintings that go back you know
centuries is essentially to showing this
and depicting it or the the Incubus or
the succubus these type of spirits or
whatever we talked about the idea of
people having this type of trauma or
these weird otherworldly encounters
early on and it almost seems like
they're being marked for something great
like this person is gonna be a light
worker this person may be a pastor
they're gonna be doing something that's
gonna be bringing healing and changed
the world and it almost seems like the
these entities or whatever want to scare
you to keep you away from anything
spiritual or anything
you know there has to deal with the
other realms we talked about that with
the shadow people but I'm kind of
drawing a link here to a little bit
about the Lightning the you know I'm
saying being struck by lightning if it's
almost like being marked I know we look
at in the Bible where it except Paul
which was struck by lightning or he's
seen a bright light which was Christ
they thought it was lightning right I
had an encounter when I was a kid me and
me and my cousin were walking and we
heard the loud bang and we're both in a
ditch
you know after after we've seen that and
then to hear your story and other people
story and you know there's ancient the
Native Americans believed in the Thunder
beings and it talks about spirits and
lightning and spirits descending and
ascending from the earth and things like
that it's an idea to to kind of ponder
have you have you has that ever crossed
your mind like that was your Damascus
Road type deal with that with the
lightning strike would you would you see
any connection there well you know as
you were talking I was just like I
literally found myself back into my
childhood because I used to have I used
to have dreams all the time I used to
see things and they used to frighten me
like like there are people you know
something energy um that would be in my
dreams that I would see in seal and my
mom used to be afraid she was like what
is this what is this now you know and I
used to be as a child when you don't
understand light energy I'm like why are
these energy fields and they weren't
light it was like dark it was scary to
me and it really was like as I began to
feel my power there was something that
was there and you know with the when I
was a baby my mother put me down to
change my diaper at one point in time in
lightening literally a lightning bolt
came she put me down and turned around
lightning bolt hits the wall just where
she likes above where I was laying and
she was just like what in the heck is
that and then when I was I think it was
in
years old I was in class in my classroom
and overhead fan fell on my head fell my
head and knocked me out and then and
then the next year lightning struck me
and then the war happened and I came to
the States alone and then in our cancer
I'm saying this to say that you know
there have been multiple times
throughout my life where I seem like
there is something trying to shut me
down
did my lights take away might just
something was trying to suck that or
make me because you have a choice right
when things happened to you do you just
say you know there's the dark side it's
really easy to go to you get depressed
you get scared you you know and you're
like why to get to the light sides and
see that light when you're in darkness
is a lot of freaking work and so there's
always things trying to pull me back you
know people I love with die somebody I
care about would be you know going
through something really painful where I
would suck the life out of me um because
I was launching my manifest you know you
know the whole experience my daughter
got very sick you know with the chronic
situations we couldn't figure out why
she was sick the person I love the most
in this world was like struggling and so
you know I know now enough to you know
to know that as much as there's light in
this world there's something that the
dark pieces can kind of pop up to kind
of either pull us away from our truth or
to the airport bearer of what's what's
to come um but I believe we have to
always really work to more thing in our
life it's something that we just have to
do and people often have asked me you
know how do you stay so focused and how
do you say I just stay on top when you
know something important and there's
people in your life certain your life
starting or there's these things that
are pulling you away from God of them
energy like light but I I know now after
being almost hit by lightning after
being here by lighting after multiple
near-death experiences so that that Pat
if if what I had to do in life wasn't so
big nothing we try to stop me you know
and and so now I I really is important
to me to be in my spiritual
practice constantly I will be in my
house and terms and I'll see I'll see a
little a shadow you know and and I
pretty spray and I'm like okay I just
pray to God that whatever I saw was you
know it is not of you take it away from
me there are people in my life who I've
been very close to who I've trusted and
in open my home in my heart you've been
moved done things where I felt you know
weren't kind very hurtful things
so the point where I've been you know
choosing wondering is am I on the right
path but you know things are going to
come and test your fate all the time
whether it's things people um but that
light talking about the dark energy or
the disarm the people whatever they are
like I see that before as a child awake
dreaming I've seen human beings that
have been in my space that I'm like oh
my god what is that you know I got to
get out of here um so it just is so
important to be consistent with your
spiritual practice and to ask God to
discern you know disorient you know what
you're seeing discern what you're
feeling discern what you're being pulled
towards sometimes we want something in
our life still power so much we want
something so badly but it's destruction
or it's the negative energy - I'm
distracted or masked that's something
that you want and that happens to me
quite a bit with people coming in my
space where I'm like oh this person
might be fun and interesting and you
know I'm seeing holes or something but
learn to just stop and say let me ask
God you know who that person really is
or what what's really happening here so
yes all you get yes yep yep yeah man
it's I was just sitting here thinking
about your your revelation of time now
like you went through these experiences
that showed you time was of the essence
I only have a little bit of time left
let me do what I can to you know to run
my racing and tell everybody I love them
and do the things that I want to do
before I pass and so your revelation of
time there and now on the other side of
walking and healing to like look time
don't even exist
I was trying to buy time and then I
found out I had to go to that to
understand time doesn't even exist like
there's only this moment there is no
time that's awesome I was just thinking
about that man having to go through that
and a lot of people who come to that
understanding of the now moment the
present moment they went through
situations where time was of the essence
you know can you can you see me at all
there's a white light angels are with
you know it happens to me all the time
my friends a lot because like light just
follows me around it's like it happens
in pictures it happens when I'm like
doing stuff but I was like I can't see
myself can you see me I can see better
now ya know the light was it again yeah
it's see better now it's still there a
little bit but I can see you a lot
better because it happens to me all the
time but um but it happens to me at
times when it's like divine you know
like I went certain things happen I can
see the light all around but yeah I know
you is sure because when I was like when
I learned how to aggressive for a cancer
and I was like so scared before that
happened I had the idea that if I did
this or waited for this time this time
would come to me my time would if I fled
time pass whatever would happen at the
right time but that doesn't really exist
you can actually just ask the time to be
right now and you know people always
think you know I'm so better tomorrow
or I'll do this the next day or they
think I'm time is something that you
know it's just it's not now but when you
find you when you when you honor the
present moment then you create the
future so you know if honoring could be
being authentically true with your
whether you're having a bad bad day or
whether you're happy or whether you just
say you know thank you God for my breath
if you honor the moment that honoring of
that of gratitude that multiplies so I
tell people some of it one thing is
really powerful that I learned when I
was going through treatment I was six
is to honor the moment so when you're
really sick or you're really depressed
you just can't see the end of time you
just think that you'll be like this
forever you'll be depressed here things
just sit forever and so I began to say
okay I'm going to be in the moment right
now and when that moment in I'll be in
the next moment and be grateful or just
oh god thank you and the next woman I'll
just say maybe God you know can you hold
me in your arms but every moment I was
in I would have an affirmation or have a
thought that would be positive or
performing or something or even blessing
God just saying what do you want to do
with me in that way when you change how
you see that's the moment
whatever energy you're calling on at
that time more of that will come that
make sense to you oh yeah and yep yeah
so people ask me like all the time
they're like so my friends will laugh at
me to call me Benjamin Button cuz
they're like you're not you're not it
like you're not eating but I really
think that even the aging process you
can slow it down or change it by how you
live your life how you see time your
diet nutrition because all this is all
about it's all like a warp you know it's
about mind over matter it's about energy
it's about you know um I never thought
about ages seeing something I had to
accrue I thought about you know accruing
more love in my heart accruing more
gratitude accruing more forgiving
spirits
some things never really applied to my
life so they applied to me very slowly
and I maybe I put it that way and so
it's been always to me a gift times been
a blessing to me the past twelve years
when I was thinking I only only have six
months a year to eat there's three
maximum whatever that I thought at the
time I had to rush to live in this time
but then God's multiplied the time like
so I'm Yours are gone by like that oh
yeah yeah guys got a way to do doing
that it's awesome we used to always see
that man and it's something to like when
you when you're teaching you know those
like I'm
even if we're just looking at the trial
so we're looking at the stuff we've been
through and you can disciple someone you
could take somebody in in these retreats
and these one-on-one coaching is you
know and you're you're giving them the
knowledge that took you years to get so
in their spiritual practice they get to
buy if they play the cards right and
they they heed the warnings and and and
do the righteous things that you're
talking about they get to bypass a lot
of stuff like if you're if they're
willing to learn and so it's it's as far
as like Tom moving faster like something
that maybe took me eight years five
years to learn of this wrestling with
God of wrestling with myself like if if
I can embody this and articulate it to
you or you understand it and learn from
it you're gonna save yourself eight
years and you can learn that and move on
even further to where we need to be like
you said what if our kids said this what
if the people who are running the world
understood some of these principles that
we get like where would we be and that's
what it is if I believe that if we keep
learning we keep growing and keep
pouring out into others we're gonna
continue to grow and they're gonna just
keep doing the same and some of the
stuff that took us years to learn will
be second nature to a lot of other
people yeah I think that's so true and
that you know my daughter and I had a
long conversation because she went out
with some friends just to do some stuff
and she came home and the house was
quiet which it is quite a bit you know
sitting in my bed reading and writing
and she's like mommy you know she's like
um why isn't the TV on and I'm like I
don't want to watch TV and um she was
talking about her talk about her like
your friends and showing me her phone
there was some she watched some videos
on you know on her Instagram and I said
to her I said she she's learning a lot
that she's still 15 and I said do you
know how many hours he spends looking at
that phone at those videos like and
she's like what do you mean I said you
know there's because if you took uh some
of that time you could be accelerating
your learning process learning process
or growing process and so I've been
teaching her about you know being
conscious of her time and you know we
did of our phone
things are really powerful tools but
then there's tools that are used to keep
our minds quiet and busy quiet quiet
from not thinking about the rising busy
with the wrong thing and also we don't
want to invest in spiritual teaching you
know I have friends are people who will
come to me for coaching and then when I
say here's what it's going to cause
they're like well I can't spend that
kind of money on coaching on retreat but
then you know they're spending money on
the mortgage on a car on drinking on
eating out it spending money on to order
stuff on it on Amazon shoes you know but
they come here yeah so you know I've had
friends that I can leave for a week for
a retreat really isn't your life more
than week of being quiet and learning
about yourself and what your triggers
are so the world really has it we're all
these useless things are free to us even
the idea of our food the food that we
eat thank your body is your temple and
because fast food is cheaper people can
spend money on fast food and less money
on healthier food and they're poisoning
their bodies but they have disease in
the body and disease around the body so
you know it's really important to take
the time to retreat to reflect and to
you know like I said be open to teaching
like what I can see somebody in an hour
to or in a month it's going to give them
more time back it'll give them lessons I
learned over thirty years they can learn
it in in a week or a month and so if you
want to speed up time you can do that
you can invest in yourself and that's in
your soul invest in you know in your
time by you know doing something that's
going to save you time money from
getting sick and from living a life is
unfulfilled nothing is worse than living
a life where at the end of it you look
at your time and have nothing to show
for it you know or nothing that's
rewarding you know every morning and get
up in I outside
tell me how I can serve you today and
when I go to bed I'm exhausted from
joining that you know I'm always
unconscious about that's the whole thing
so don't live forever I would live
forever and ever and ever yes but I know
that no one does live forever but
whenever I do leave this planet
we'll have given and become the best
that I can be and I want that for
anybody everybody I can you know touch
yeah you're my working yeah that's that
uh at the end of the day knowing that
you made a difference knowing that your
life mattered is like that did I make
this this journey a little bit easier
for other people who were having a hard
time you know what I'm saying did I not
just come here and take take take did I
give did I create something you know and
I talked about that aspect a lot about
how we're made in the likeness and the
image of our Creator who's a Creator God
that made everything the universe spoke
everything crafted it formed us and
really unique and all the beauty and
wonder of the world that's out there you
know and then when we embody that and we
create something whatever it is we
create anything whether it's a song or a
painting or a picture or whatever that
you create you birth something a retreat
that didn't exist until you created it
like that's the highest form of worship
I believe back to our Creator of being
made in that image and likeness of a
little creators and we create something
especially if it's something beautiful
something that helps people versus
creating wickedness and creating
confusion and stuff but getting
something beautiful man I think that's
the highest form of worship I really do
it is it is and you know God wants for
us to create beautiful things and even
when things happen that we don't want to
happen I always think how do you create
something beautiful out of you know
that's not something not that's not
wanted or not not beautiful and um at
the end of day when I leave or we all
leave this planet you want to leave
something behind this beautiful you know
whatever your life means how do you how
to do energy permeate or how does this
differ in time and space to leave on
something that's eternal you know that
you created that's whether it's love
whether you inspire somebody light and
they inspire the next person than the
next person
you will then change lives don't ever
really die you know like people that can
really change the world they go on they
live on forever and ever and ever so how
do you ensure that you are eternal is by
taking your energy and your spirit and
using that to help other people to live
a life that's you know more powerful
more authentic and that moves them
keywords deeply towards their souls
purpose towards their Y and helping them
to kind of you know really live that
y-main at the end of the day nothing I
think is more important than to do that
and through my work I really love
helping young you know youth helping
young woman men people to really delve
into the truth of who they are connect
with themselves what do you plead with
other people and to make their time
matter in a powerful way that that will
live forever well said my friend
maimie thank you for coming on the show
I really enjoyed our conversation here
really enjoyed it
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really good really good episode got
really deep there at the end I enjoyed
that
yeah good stuff so time thinking about
time thinking about time doesn't exist
looking at God I will often see like
Jesus or God like as a time traveler but
if time doesn't exist
it talks about like when you come to God
he's able to take your sins and throw
them as far as the east is to the west
to eight to be able to remember your
sins no more to be able to
make it to be justified by faith be
justified just if I'd never done it just
able to erase the sins of the past and
make it though you had never even
committed the crime
you've never even committed the deed
much like a court case somebody who
walks in and say he's free to do it he's
free to go he didn't even do it to begin
with what what we got him we got him
he's guilty got caught him red-handed
he never done it yet I'm on tricks he's
never done it okay
never done it be able to go back
literally into your soul and to take
that out of you that experienced those
memories people who have had tormenting
memories and thoughts about sins they
did when they were younger or things
that happen to them I was able to go
back in time and erase it and make it
though it had never happened justified
just if I had never done it
a lot of people come to this notion
where they they get healing and he can
trust God with their past you say you
know what I'm good I understand I went
through that stuff it wasn't me I was
acting out of hurt I was acting out of
anger I didn't know who I was now I know
I thank God God's healed me restored me
I trust him with my past now it's time
to trust him with your future like that
could be a whole nother thing right the
past is one thing passes cleaned up what
about your future where you headed
what's gonna happen like that could be a
whole nother road that's a whole nother
story being able to trust God with your
future talking about we're talking about
wheeze calling God father mother
he/she/it whatever
I mean God is all of that right I think
God is every single every single bit of
it everything anything you can name I
think that that's a peace of God
everything reflects its creator
everything you're gonna name is
something created anyway right and that
created thing reflects what the creator
whatever is created is going to reflect
the creator
at that when an artist finishes a
painting he signs the bottom his print
is on it his fingerprint piece of him is
in that everything not just a good stuff
how I like to say not just the good
stuff everything peace of God is in all
of it and we look at God being the
father
I like God the Father you know running a
lot of spiritualist circles and they
don't like the embodiment of God being a
man they get offended God is not a man
the Bible is true the Bible says God is
not a man that he should lie right God
is not a man but it's the aspect of the
character of the Father the embody the
persona of the father father God mother
God I like to look at I see God is the
father and I see the earth as the mother
God reached down and touched the earth
and we came out of our mother father God
mother earth but to look at God as the
father for me I probably never get away
from that and I'm okay with that it's
not a religious programming you're so
religious God is not the father but
understood this that God is the father I
didn't have a father growing up I didn't
have a dad in my life so when I came to
God this relationship with God he became
a father the scripture he says I'll be a
father unto the fatherless that blew my
mind that there was a special anointing
for me a special relationship for me a
young kid misguided youth who didn't
have a father that God would Sal be a
father unto the fatherless took him at
his word and I swear to you God took me
under his wing
under the shadow of the almighty like he
said he would do and he became my father
and began to teach me things that that a
father didn't teach me and there was a
lot of little bitty things like you know
just how just work ethic and changing
oil and just digging a ditch and all of
these things like little things I didn't
I didn't know how to do and I could see
the hand of God working and a lot of the
jobs that I got early on I could see the
hand of God working when I was digging a
ditch alongside the road I was learning
how to use a shovel I was learning how
to change oil I was learning how to cut
grass like all of this stuff that men
like your father teaches that the son
and I never got that but I was
consciously aware as a as a young man
learning that God was teaching me how to
be a man like I'm a [Â __Â ] like I'm a
father now but how do how would I I
don't know what that looks like I don't
know what a father looks like I are no
going to my friend's house when I was a
kid and seeing them interact with their
father and it was so foreign I didn't
know what to do could I join them it
would be like having wrestling matches
with their dads except pillows up
everywhere and pillow fights and big
wrestling man and I run I'd wrestled
these other kids dads with them he's
stolen us around we're on his neck
choking him out you know they're having
fun little kids man I never I never had
that from a father you know and so to be
there was like it was a little awkward
can I do this is this okay you know so
when I grew up and I had a daughter I
didn't know what that father looked like
and but it was unto letting God teach me
what he looks like it's he's a perfect
father he's a good good father
as the song says he's a good good father
and he loves to give us good gifts so
that aspect of saying father God the
aspect of calling God at him that's
where it comes from for me and many of
you new guys resonate with something
similar to that but I wonder I had a mom
in my life wasn't the perfect
relationship but I had a mother but I
wonder for that young person whoever you
are who grew up without a mother and
just as I'm relating this cool story
about God teaching me becoming a father
showing me how to become a father
showing me how to become a son like
those people who grew up without a
mother there's God become that
personification for them do they have
this beautiful revelation that they
could break down I'd love to talk to
somebody about that man
the Mahdi who didn't have a mother will
grow up with their father bunch of men
in the house grew up with the father
brothers no mother
I wonder if they come into this
relationship with God and God is the
motherly aspect the more of the nurturer
the more of the one who takes care of
you and mend your wounds and spoils you
and things like that and you know when
your father chastises you the mother is
the one who consoles you you know I
wonder if that's out there I'd love to
talk to somebody but that's the that's
the aspect for me of the father god
thing and I like I said I probably never
that's special to me he's not a father
trust people get upset oh you're just
being religious
it's just religious programming to say
God is a he Oh for me it's a great
relationship with my father
and mother and brother and sister Oliver
God is all of it
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your donation thank you so much Chris
the earlier this is my robot voice
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episode man hope you guys did too a lot
of cool ideas I'm gonna pursue that
lightning thing man I've always been
I've always been intrigued by the
lightning and Satan fell as lightning
from heaven this flash of bright light
this lightning struck Paul off of this
[Â __Â ] high horse quite literally and it
was he had an encounter with Jesus there
no I don't think anybody else saw Jesus
they seen the light like a lightning and
it blind blinded him you know
and people have had these encounters and
angels ascending and descending and I've
always felt that man so I'm gonna I'm
gonna do my research on that we'll
probably do a show on that I'll do my
research and I probably reach out to
somebody who has a book on it or
somebody who talks about the Thunder
beans this is how it works together man
somebody's already done their research
and I'm gonna get them home I have them
on this show oh good stuff thank you
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are all different levels of giving are
people who believe in my work creating
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I think I pronounce your last name right
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thank you
but with that I'm gonna say peace and
Shalom I love each and every one of you
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that's next and for you guys Takas has
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impact that that book had upon me all of
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doing a very similar thing in their
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update my my stream stream update or
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bunch of new names that I have coming up
and then this week and then the next
month or so it was booked I'll do that
so with that i'm say peace of Shalom
love you guys peace
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