Set Free By Jesus | Taira Leanne's Testimony
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today Tara Leanne welcome to the true
seeker podcast how are you my friend
thank you so much for having me I am
actually happy and full of joy today so
I look forward to sharing with you may
you enjoy before yep so we'll talk about
that like I said before we went live I
have a lot of different people on and
I'm I'm not afraid of anybody story a
lot of people say how can you have a
Bryan Trejo how can you have a seven
aluminate you know some of these people
how can you have these Christian
ministers on and then you'll have these
different people who are into the occult
or into Buddhism or whatever the case is
you know I'm not afraid of anyone
anyone's story I'm not afraid of your
story either you don't know saying so
it's just a safe place to come and and
speak your truth and what's real for you
and like you were saying it's not about
really about how much knowledge you know
or what you've studied or whatever but
your life experiences and so I think
there's power and that the scripture
says that they overcame by the word of
the lamb by the blood of the Lamb and
the word of their testimony so I really
believe in that it's powerful so I want
to hear your story if you want to start
off you know testifying about where you
were when you met Jesus they'd be an
awesome place to start okay well where I
was when I met Jesus I was actually in a
very vulnerable dark state I was very a
headstrong hard-hearted I grew up as a
runaway most of my life from the time I
was 13 to 18 so I had a very hard heart
the streets taught me a lot having to
take care of myself
taught me a lot and so when I met Jesus
he actually came through somebody else
and showed me a love you know that I had
never experienced just somebody coming
on my doorstep man and giving me the
simplicity of the gospel and I had been
actually you know crying out to God
saying you know I know the way I'm
living is wrong I had started having
vision and dreams of Jesus coming back
and they meant me being in my sin I was
I smoked weed just about every day
alcohol was my drug of choice you know I
was just very depressed clinically
depressed on every kind of
antidepressant that the doctors could
give me and they told me there was no
hope so I was really without hope and my
little girls dad at the time was in and
out of prison
smoking crack it was just it we was at
the bottom and but what was drawing me
to call on the real god of Jesus Christ
was the fact that the vision and dreams
I started having and I knew that I knew
if he came back and I was in my sin I
would not go with him
and I heard about him I said a sinner's
prayer when I was fixed but I did not
know him and so as I began to call out
and ask him to deliver me there was two
guys that came on my doorstep it was
October the 9th of 2004 and I came on my
doorstep and I mean they just shared the
gospel with me and what happened that
day was that day I had just got out of
the hospital with my 14 month old
daughter she had two double ear
infections bronchiolitis she was running
a fever and so we got out about 4:00
a.m. that morning where they come
knocking on the doorstep about probably
around 10-ish 11 ish and I thought
there's no way I'm gonna answer the door
and an idea though because I didn't want
her waking up and when I answered the
door and they started giving me Jesus at
first I thought they might have been
like Jehovah Witness somebody like that
and because I knew so many people there
that talked about God and they talked
about this Jesus but
didn't have power in their lives they
had no substance of peace and joy they
had no power of overcoming addiction and
affliction and not saying we don't get
that but I didn't see evidence of God
being in their life you know in the Word
of God says that the power of God is not
just a pocket of power I mean there's
fruit there and so I saw why you been
talk about religion or talk about him
but at the same time when I was calling
out to him I didn't realize he would
show up like through a person you know
on my doorstep to just give me the
gospel give me love so they said no no
no we're not Jehovah Witnesses they said
just give us just a minute man we just
want to come by and tell you we love you
and jesus loves you and ask you and this
is what opened up the door for me it's
ask you if you need prayer for anything
and I said well yeah actually I do I
have a 14 month old that's really really
sick and and they said well okay well if
you don't mind we can pray for her and I
said sure I said you just can't come in
the house and so they stood on my
doorstep and they prayed for my daughter
and I went back to the room while
they're on my doorstep I go back to see
if what they prayed was real and when I
got back there she was healed she had no
fever she felt completely normal so my
heart opened up at that point to receive
what it is what else they had to tell me
and so they just gave me the simple
gospel what Jesus done for me on the
cross and the power of God that raised
him from the dead and that same power
could you know raise me out of my skin
and forgive me and the Holy Spirit at
that point convicted me in such a way
with love and it was it was a notic and
not a condemnation but a conviction that
well what I'm sorry I've sinned against
you you know and the presence of God
came on me on my front doorstep and I
began to weep and just confess my sins
to the Lord and and so they prayed over
me and they said listening you know if
you want to come to church you're more
than welcome to come to Jesus is the
answer Church they said you know wait
because at the point I was living like
like I said you know it was just real
bad and so they knew when they came on
my doorstep just by looking on the
outside the ashtray the beer bottles and
stuff like that it was like you know we
we're not going to support you take care
of you nothing like that but your life
will get changed and I thought okay my
life's going to get changed and it's
this same power of Jesus can touch me
there then I definitely need to go and
long story short fast forward that night
ended up getting put in jail and you
think why would you get in ever since
you know when that happened your mind
don't get renewed your spirit gets nude
like renewed you know you get a new
spirit you're born of God but my mom was
so far gone like still of the world and
so that night my little girls dad he his
name's Derek actually took me things
there and he came over and he was on the
run and he was like you know and I
didn't tell you know like you could you
can't stay here I mean there's no way I
was gonna tell him no and we was on and
off together at the time and and I knew
that the lifestyle we was headed down I
didn't need to continue on that with him
but I said you know you can stay here so
it was only his hot in place and so well
the police found out actually they had
been watching my house and he came in
and when he came in a couple hours later
they invaded and they asked me if he was
there and I said no he wasn't there and
I lied to him because I knew the
repercussions you know what was going to
take place not only for him but between
me and him we had a very abusive
relationship it was just you know I mean
when you're on drugs all the time you're
not even in your right thank you
and so he ended up getting locked up so
I got locked up too charged with a
felony for eight and then a bedroom and
I get locked up they threatened to take
my daughter put her in state's custody
and I just was like no way I said no way
and he knew that the police that was
there I mean he was in and out of
trouble law so he knew him and he said
listen please man whatever you do don't
don't take my daughter and so a friend
of mine came a man that she came and
stayed with her in anyways I got bailed
out got back home and I was still drawn
to what happened that day October the
9th and I went to sleep got about two
hours to sleep and it was like I just
suddenly woke up on a Sunday morning the
10th and that never happened you know
you're a sinner you don't wake up on
Sunday morning like that was not my
saying I never woke up on a Sunday
morning to go nowhere and I woke up and
it was just like boom and I got up and I
was like I gotta get to that church I
got my little girl ready and I went to
that church Derick and I walked in the
front door of that church and the
presence of God was so strong on me when
I walked in and the love that I felt
welcomed in there because I thought what
are these people gonna think of me you
know I was having all these calm yeah
yeah but I was like if those people are
like the people I met on my front porch
then I know like they got the real Jesus
because there's a lot of counterfeit
Jesus out here you know and so I went
through the presence of God just came on
me and I started weeping and I haven't
cried in a long time and I started just
crying and I thought to myself why in
the world am i crying you know I was
trying to wipe the chairs I was like
calm down here come to him and I had her
in my arms and I went up and sat down
because at the time they were having
services upstairs in this Bank before we
ever got a church building and the
Spirit of God that was moving so strong
and I sat down in that day October the
10th
I've never been the same and my pastor
which is still now my pastor my
spiritual father - in the faith pastor
Robert scales he just starts he just
starts reading everything about my life
and I was sitting there like wow okay so
he just started reading everything about
my life and one thing that I was so
clogged with is the depression and the
fear even though I had the drug issue
and the alcohol issue the rebellion you
know you you lift all that up off your
life then you got to face those internal
roots there you know that calls all of
it and so he just started naming step
off since I was a little girl that was
happening and he said ma'am do you know
would you like prayer and I said yes
absolutely and so he prayed for me
little did I know what was gonna happen
when he prayed for me he prayed for me
and I had an experience that I've never
had before and it was that I got
delivered from certain demons that day
and when I got delivered and those
Devils came out of me it was like he
pray for me and the presence of God came
on me boom and then I'd go out under the
power of God nobody touching me and then
he was like no get her back up and this
happened three times boom go out under
the power of God no get her back up and
he would start casting Devils out of me
and telling them they got to go you know
because I didn't I wasn't in their
kingdom any longer
they couldn't rule me and so that
happened and that day I felt so much
more freer you know I wasn't completely
delivered from things that because you
know when you keep that you keep certain
things in your heart you know it keeps
that door open to those demonic spirits
to stay there so wasn't completely free
and of course like I said my mom was
renewed but that day I went home and I
had so much more peace enjoyed that I
had never had before and I remember I
felt so clean dereck on the inside that
nothing had ever done for me before and
I saw you know wow
if I can feel this clean I want to keep
it so I started seeking the Lord Lord
how do I keep this like what and he
began to put a hunger in me for the word
of God that I never had before I love
and me to actually love people like I
didn't really love people you know I
might I had a certain few but you know I
like I said I had a hard heart I'm just
he totally changed me from the inside
that day and I began to seek him and I
started cutting things off in my life
that he told me he said don't go back to
living in fornication don't go back to
to the people that I hung around and
that was probably one of the the biggest
soul ties that I had to break was my my
little girls dad my baby's dead it was
probably one of the biggest soul ties
and but that was when it all started and
so as I began to seek Him first you know
every day I had a place in my living
room
I lived in the projects I ended up
moving to the projects when he got sent
to prison because at the time I just
couldn't afford it on my own and every
door closed except that door and that
was supernatural even how that happened
because I wasn't supposed to get him for
six months and I humbled myself and I
said you know God if you want me to to
move into the projects then you're gonna
have to show me because people were like
Terry you're just gonna have to humble
yourself and I saw dear God I'm not
moving in the projects with my little
girl you know at the time I just thought
I've had enough of this lifestyle and
every door shut and they called me and
they said listen you know if you if you
still want to move in we have a place
for you they said we don't know how this
happened this never happens they said
but every person we called has either
their phone disconnected or that didn't
answer
or they did not want that place so I
knew then it was the Lord and I humbled
myself moved in with hardly anything
because the place we had before was
fully furnished I was in school for
cosmetology so he was made
and the money you know he was selling
dope and then Payton houses so he was
making the money at the time and so I
started out with like hardly nothing and
I got a job waiting tables and I'm
telling you it was like since that day
of October the to actually October the
9th is when it really started it's just
been it's been progressively developing
in Jesus learning my identity in him and
and learning how much just tapping into
the love he has you know for me and for
other people that's awesome amazing
story and there's so many there's so
many similarities there to my story as
well it's really cool to hear you're
talking about when you were in the world
and you were essentially running from
God you had those nightmares being
plagued like you're about to die or
Jesus was coming back and then you know
the last second with the last breath
before you die you try to call out to
him the rights and kind of you know and
I don't know if this is because there's
so much to my testimony that you know I
don't know if you wanted to even go back
even further but like I've had vision
and dreams since I was about as a junk
as I can remember 5 and 6 years old you
know when my mom died she died when I
was 11 my dad wasn't really in the
picture after at the time I was 8 years
old he was there on and off but it
became the supernatural room to me was
just so like fascinating you know and so
the Lord knew that when he came in my
heart in my life like I need it to be
delivered like you know what I'm saying
I didn't want to come in religion cuz I
thought if I'm really gonna stop what
I'm doing getting high and enjoying the
house I enjoyed I enjoyed the pleasure
of it like I was one of those Oh getting
on no I enjoyed it you know it was
pleasurable to me but I thought if I'm
gonna stop this I didn't know you could
just set me free
but songs thinking if I stop this then I
definitely don't want to start serving
going to church and being mad all the
time and depressed and serving religion
you know I thought there's no point in
that if I'm gonna serve a God then he's
gonna have to be a god that is the God
of love and a power you know and that's
he wound me in because of his love if it
was not his love on the cross and how he
loves me and his Menna festive presence
there's no way I could make it as a
disciple of Christ I mean and to show me
how to live by faith you know I think a
lot of people tried to run from living
by faith once they call him the name of
Jesus they think that everything's just
supposed to fall into place but he told
us to live by faith by hearing him every
day and doing what he says every day
that's living by faith it's not just
having the knowledge of the word or
going to church Sundays or Wednesdays
are having an outreach and doing good
deeds you know it's really being in a
place where you can hear him daily and
you're doing what he says daily that's
how Jesus lived in John 5:19 he always
heard the father and he always done what
the father showed him and what the
father spoke to him
and I believe that's where you tap into
the real relationship with yes talk a
little bit about coming off of the drugs
and and and filling that euphoria from
the Holy Spirit because it's a tangible
presence it's a high it's it's the most
high right when it whenever you feel the
presence of Jesus for me that's what
kind of got me off of I say drugs when I
was just smoking weed every day as a
teenager but but that was my escape and
then when I felt the presence of the
Holy Spirit come in it was a you it was
a high a body high cleaned out your
spirit like you felt good you're
vibrating buzzing you feel really good
talk about how like that plays a part in
weaning you off of drugs or like giving
up one drug to get like the like the
real deal almost
mm-hmm well for me personally I know
everybody has different experiences and
you know one thing before I say this I
want to say you know it's good to have
the manifestation of his presence even
though we're not called to live by it
because some people can think because
well I don't feel his presence then met
he must not be with me or maybe I'm not
doing something right maybe I'm in sin
or you know you you have all these
questions so I kinda want to make that
point before I say that because some
people continue doing that for me you
know and I think is is presences by
default it's gonna come when we spend
time with him and we keep his
Commandments
you know because he said it in John
14:21 those who love him to keep his
commandments he manifests himself too
and and getting that intimate place but
for me it was that I knew there that if
he did not touch me if he did not come I
was not gonna make it because there was
times that and when I say make it and
that means going back to the liquor
store you know that means going back and
having sex and and doing all the things
I was doing going back and selling some
pills and some dope just to make some
money you know so for me this is what I
would do is number one I knew I needed
to seek Him first like I knew I had to
get up it's been come with him but then
when even when I did and he his mercy
was so good but I knew I had to get to
church because where my in our setting
our local church it's it's it's all
about Jesus you know what I'm saying
there's not it's not dead and it's not
full of just religion and I knew that I
knew if I didn't make it to having
fellowship with the Brethren and hearing
the word and eating of that word I
wasn't gonna make it and then another
thing is I would get on my knees and I
would worship Him until his presence
just comes like I could worship him
right now and his presence would come
and I would say Lord if you don't touch
me if you do not keep me and this was my
prayer Lord I pray you keep me because
if you don't I'm not gonna be able to
make it because I didn't have no word in
me you know what I'm saying the more
you're sustained by the word because the
word is our helper our help but the Holy
Spirit's our helper and so I would just
worship him until he manifested and I
remember like when I looked in the
projects and and there then it was my I
want to say those two years was probably
my most the temptation of what I came
out of was the most strongest okay and
so I would smell weed like I could be on
my knees and they're right next door
smoking and playing all the music that I
used to listen to and partying and I
would just have thoughts you know you
got to do is just go knock on the door
and then I thought you know what if I do
that and if I sin against the Lord
there's no tellin number one what I'm
gonna miss out on from God because he
said in his word he's faithful he's
faithful to reward those who diligently
seek Him and that was my favorite
scripture Hebrew stick and I said Lord I
said you know if I stay here until you
manifest I know I can make it and then
another thing is I thought if I go knock
on that door and I don't do what he says
I'm gonna be a reproach and they're
gonna say this this God doesn't work
mm-hmm and I had so many people around
me that didn't know Jesus that didn't
understand that they knew I was
different but yet I got so much
persecution yeah like persecution from
some of my bestest friends family
members I was the first Christian in my
uh my dad side and then I was the first
real disciple on my mom's side that I
know of in my immediate family anyway
and so to me especially on my dad's side
it was definitely
like laying it all down for Jesus
because of the persecution that was
coming from that and and I knew I
thought they're watching me they're
wanting me to fall they're wanting to
say that what I have is it real yeah and
and I knew it was real but I had to get
my unbranded minds you know in line with
his word to where I could I could keep
producing him because at the time I
didn't know how to do that you know I
knew how to be bold for Jesus but I
didn't really know how to balance it
with love yeah you know and so I would
just get on my knees until he manifested
and then another thing is that really
really helped me and I saw the freedom
in it was when I got set free it was
September the 9th of 2005 is when I
actually got free from cigarettes I
smoke cigarettes every single day if I
can die half every day for 12 years and
that was the thing probably for that
year that was holding me like you know
that one thing it's like man if I can
just get set free from this I know I'm
gonna bust through some stuff ya know
September the 9th I actually got free
and what I started to speak in everyday
is that Jesus sent me free and I would
start telling everybody I was around
what he sent me free from smoking
cigarettes weed alcohol lust you know
the fear depression I just started
naming these things off because the more
I said it in the more strengthened me
like you said you know we're set free by
the blood of the Lamb and the word of
our testimony and not living our life
into death and so I thought you know my
pastor would tell me that he said Terry
Colossians 1 12 through 14 Jesus set you
free you got to know that and really by
faith because that's another thing
living by faith you speaking that as you
live in my faith and seeing the
manifestation of his power keeping you
and I thought how am I gonna speak
something that's the word and actually
see it happen but I did
and I saw it and every time I went by a
liquor store and I would get all these
thoughts I'd say now Jesus set me free
from you I would talk to it because it's
got a voice you know and I would go in
Kroger and matter of fact just a few
years ago I had thoughts as as a
minister of the gospel I had I saw this
strawberry uh I think it was my lemonade
or something and strawberries my
favorite okay so I saw this strawberry
for the first time in there and all of a
sudden I had these thoughts came to me
and I thought man I have thoughts in
years yeah and immediately Derrick the
Holy Spirit spoke to me and said Tara if
you don't speak to it it's gonna speak
to you yeah and I took authority over
and see a lot of people can say well
you're you're just in your own strength
you know anybody can overcome anything
because of their self-control but one
thing I could not do and I did not want
to do is stop that you know what I'm
saying only Jesus could set me free
yeah and one thing is I know I couldn't
have got free from depression if it
wasn't for the real Jesus you know what
I'm saying
yep yeah it's so funny you say that
about the you know smoking weed thing
because when I first gave my life to the
Lord and I 1998 I went and was going to
church and filled the Holy Spirit and I
went back to stay with my cousin's for
the weekend and they you know smoking
weed and drank him and they're passing
weed around and I'm in the circle and
they know I'm a Christian and stuff but
Pilar wasn't the best example of you
know I was 14 or whatever they passing a
weed around and it's coming to me and
the first time I've I've heard the voice
of the Holy Spirit speak to me was that
moment because right before they were
gonna hand it to me I felt the Holy
Spirit speak to me say okay what's
better my presence or that weed and like
that was my place of escape right and so
the president's took the place of that
the presence takes me to another place
and
how's everything okay and I got you I
got you let me that's the first time I
heard him speak to me that conscious
that still still small voice I failed I
you know I smoked the weed but but it
was at that thing of knowing that inner
voice and that he does speak to us and
so you learn from your mistakes and and
even with you battling the cigarette
addiction for a year like it's cool
because in that whole year you're
learning what conviction of the Holy
Spirit is you're learning that he just
didn't give up on you and but all right
you can be a Christian and still smoke
you okay you don't came off a dope you
ain't drinking no more keep your
cigarettes but you had this inward
struggle with the Holy Spirit and he
wanted to renew every part of you he
wanted all of you not just a little bit
so that whole year just developing the
little things man to be able to know
what the discernment is and that he went
went because those are things on that on
the outside like he goes even deeper
than just did the things people do weed
and see and stuff so that relationship
that intersect the fication process man
is so beautiful and so intimate and he
knows every everything about us also
talking about seeing the real deal like
cuz it's very very powerful like I knew
Christians coming up and whether I was a
little kid maybe they didn't there's
always weird Christian stuff like okay
that person is a Christian they don't
allow TV in the house and you're talking
to a little kid watching a lot of TV oh
you guys you know III don't that there's
a disconnect there you like what you
know what's TV that's what raised me
essentially is the television you know
and and then I'd see other Christians
who who went to the Southern Baptist
Church and there's the pastor screaming
and we went visited just because the
people who watched us brought us there
and they old people who played the piano
and sung out the hypnosis oh it's that
old-time religion but that was it wasn't
real it was like a theory or just a
belief system that you line yourself up
with and agree with but so when
Christianity is talking about talked
about it's just an idea
Cristi I believe in Jesus all yeah me
too I usually go to this church but to
see somebody walking it in power changes
everything because we've seen so many
Christians and and bad representations
but then I met somebody who would lock
themselves in the room for two hours
every night to read the Bible and and
pray and put on worship music and light
candles and spend time with Jesus and
that was real to them and it was the
real deal when they came out of that
room stuff happened when they prayed for
people people got healed when people
would receive the Holy Spirit when they
laid hands on them and they never liked
to receive the glory because we'd always
venerate those people that hate pray for
me man because when you pray stuff
happens and say well you have that same
power but there's a difference when
someone you can tell when somebody
believes God at its word somebody who
has the face to impart the Holy Spirit
unto you or whatever the case is man so
when you see someone walking in the real
deal versus religion for the sake of
religion it changes everything and
that's really awesome that the people
who showed up were the real deal because
it could have been anybody right the
people who showed up for me after that
so I fell in and got into witchcraft
really deep and okayed yourself and I
got in the phone book some years that
was about three three years later
wanting somebody to pray for me I
started calling all these pastors and
all these churches and one church called
me back I was leaving messages saying I
feel like I'm demon-possessed I think I
got a demon him and he somebody pray one
charge called me back this guy ended up
like they were like over a Assemblies of
God but he the pastor came to the house
to pray with us and bring us a church
day and the guy ended up being a cult
leader like real deal like sacrificing
animals and messing with children and
stuff and they did a whole show on it to
show a true detective with a Matthew
McConaughey and Woody Harrelson I
believe they did a whole show on it
based off of this church that I went to
and you could you know you there's no
telling who could have showed up but you
just had God sent the right people at
the right time
who are the real deal to you when you
needed them the most yeah
so your question so you're just wanting
me to see like your answer as far as
like in my life
just seeing the real like with other
people yeah versus hat versus the people
everybody's a Christian for the most
part especially in this we in a Bible
Belt I could tell from your accent I
don't know exactly what you're from but
you're close enough so like everybody's
a Christian right so but there's a
difference when you meet somebody who's
truly a disciple you know somebody who's
of who's filled with the Holy Ghost and
power that Dunamis power that it talks
about receiving the power to work
miracles and see signs and wonders if
you believe like that's a different type
talk a little bit about okay see in the
real game yeah yeah for me seeing the
real deal is it wins my respect
especially like I said when I first came
into it anyway my respect of knowing
that what they claim because I watched
my pastor very closely free I mean I
still watch him but very closely for
years because I thought man he the way
he preaches truth and I say truth and a
lot of people think that they get talked
truth so I need to narrow that down the
way he preaches about Jesus and what
Jesus taught what Jesus said and what
Jesus did on that cross and and how the
Holy Spirit always backed it up in
services and in his life I saw when he
comes out of preaching and he was the
main and I'm using him because he was
the main one that especially at first
that I seen really live it and when I
mean by really live it is the love of
God you know Jesus said in John 13:34
and 35 he said a new commandment that I
give to you is that you love one another
as I have loved you by this show you
know
my disciples by the way they love each
other right so I was looking for how did
he respond when something was wrong
because that's how you can really tell
and and I believe the more as we as
disciples because I there's the
difference between a believer and a
disciple a disciple is one who adheres
to Jesus's teachings and does it okay
and has the Holy Spirit to enable them
and empower them to carry out what Jesus
commands us a believer is somebody who
just has the knowledge and believes what
Jesus done you know what I'm saying but
they don't have the love of God teaching
them and empower them and loving them I
believe when Jesus commanded gave us
that commandment in John 13:34 he points
us back to how He loves us you know the
perfect picture of how Jesus or how God
loved us is through Jesus on the cross
and so we look at how he loved us and
think wow he forgave me of all my sins
he traded places with me he loved me so
much that he wanted a relationship with
me to send His only Son to die to take
all the punishment that I deserve for my
sin on that cross so I wouldn't have to
get death for what I deserved because I
deserve I deserve hell dance all the
punishment I don't care how good of a
person you think you are I was you know
what I'm saying in my heart the good
good deeds I've done sorry
so when I look at the person especially
starting out pastor skills I was like he
really he really loves people like this
man don't change like he just you know
he forgives forgets he shows he's a
pastor but he serves more than anybody I
know and it really set in my heart a
tone in my heart that caused me to
really
that everything else I saw before you
know was more of the counter you
know this is the real deal and I was
like and he's teaching me the word and
then the word tells me that I can follow
people as they follow Christ you know
and when so Derek it really and then I
had one other lady her name is Minister
Deborah and those two people would call
me at my worst and love me through it
and not when nobody else wanted to mess
with me because like I said I came in
hard I was out I always in gang
affiliation and stuff I was just hard
like the person you see now was nothing
like I was 13 years ago and the people
that knew me started out you know they
were churchgoers and some of them were
real disciples but they didn't really
know from the Lord how to love me where
I was at and they loved me where I was
at pastor skills and Minister Deborah
and so and and the thing is is
throughout the years of seeing that
where the love that in first Corinthians
13 that talks about it never fails I
actually saw it lived out and it changed
me to where if Jesus gave this
commandment to the church then he has
given me power to live it out and I
don't have to blame like even if my
sister my brother or myself because
we're all learning how to live this by
faith you know I have to repent I might
say something that that wasn't Jesus you
know what I'm saying that wasn't love or
say in a tone that wasn't right and so
the thing is is seeing through that love
that humility that you will carry and
that I've seen other people carry and so
Jesus that you're going to know these
prophets these people that call
themselves mine by their fruit and the
fruit if you keep reading on down on
that chapter he's talking about how they
love people you know and I think that
the world
has came into a lot of the church as a
whole and what I mean by that is like
what they think lobbyists they brought
into the church to accept things that
God don't even accept that he even tells
the church in Revelations to to repent
of you know so we really look at love
what love really is
then of course we look at the Word of
God and we have the answers but you look
at the cross and the cross took our sins
but then also when we don't believe on
him according to John 3:1 we don't
believe on Jesus we're what we're
condemned already because we believe not
so when we believe not we stay in what
we deserve and so many people end up
reaping it and then you you you got the
side of love where people are they just
put up with things that Jesus took upon
himself and then tells us repent of it
actually 2618 these that when you turn
from the power darkness to the power of
light when you turn from the power Satan
to the power of God you receive an
inheritance and if you're receiving
something obviously you didn't have it
before and so you don't even know as an
unbeliever or as a churchgoer that
hasn't really became a disciple yet that
inheritance you know and when you
receive that inheritance of eternal life
and that love of God it changes you and
although you fall and although you you
have to repent you know you you don't
want to live in a way that is grieving
the Holy Spirit grieving the love of God
and so to me seeing that picture really
helped change my thinking and change my
life and a way where although I know
that Jesus is supreme he's the Lord of
lords King of Kings and God is my god
king nobody do me like him and he's my
ultimate deliverer and peace and joy
sends somebody else that that really
lived what they preached changed changed
me in a way that I know that it brought
me in a way
like conviction of wow I gotta come up
you know what I'm saying
attainable to like if somebody else is
doing it like you can actually do it too
it makes it easy so you walking into
things of god you fulfilling your your
your calling your ministry
it moves other people to say hey I can
do this too I talk about this sense of
jealousy almost like like man you know
what I want what she has I can do it
it's if she can do it I can do it right
but it's a good thing it moves you to
kind of want to do better for yourself
and whether it's financially or
spiritually or whatever the case is like
you can do it too which is which is a
really cool thing whenever we are living
our authentic selves being who God has
called us to be you talked a little bit
about having demons cast it out let's
talk a little bit about that like what
do you think it was how did they get
there what left did they try to come
back you know what I'm saying when
whenever the the pastor was praying for
you you felt something leave he said he
prayed three times and you fell down
each time when you felt stuff leave was
our battle going in and your mind was
you crying screaming gnashing at the
teeth what all was taking place within
your psyche when that was going on yes
the time I mean I was crying you know I
felt it leave it wasn't a manifestation
of demons I've had men efest Asians and
I can I don't want to jump ahead of
myself but that particular day I don't
know which ones at last I really believe
that it you know I really believe it was
the alcohol there was an alcoholic a
minute let's there was definitely a
demon of lust not just lust of them like
looking at pornography and stuff but
like all my lives I mean not all my life
but most of my life growing up
from the time I was 11 and really really
I had lust issues before 11 but from the
time I was 11 years old all the way up
until you know I was 20 I struggled with
always like being alone
like I couldn't stand to be alone and I
always had somebody and the majority of
the time and I say this for testimony's
sake because I'm not ashamed I know who
God's made me now know he's cleaned me
up made me pure but for testimony sake I
mean I always had more than one person
you know even when I felt like I was
faithful
especially from 11 to 17 18 you know I
moved around a lot I was in States
custody and now the juvenile detention
centers and and on the streets like I
said and so you can only imagine and so
I really believe when I got set free
that that was one of them that left and
the alcohol and then the other one I
don't know if it was fear but there was
another one that left and and so later
on during my walk with the Lord I
noticed there was anger that would
manifest for a while like this demon of
anger was and I would not want to try to
do it like it wasn't something I just
I'm just gonna get mad and throw stuff
you know what I'm saying it would
manifest and I would literally grind my
teeth every time and I didn't even know
I was grinding my teeth and every time I
would get mad my daughter would say mom
what is wrong with you why are you
crying in your teeth and she was like
you're just doing this and I was like no
I'm not she said yes you are and I
remember it got to the point of where
when I started in my Christian walk I
would get so mad a bit I didn't want to
hurt her so I would pick up something
throw it against the wall and or I would
just holler at her in a way that wasn't
love at all and um
but I'm telling you I got so convicted
every time and I would cry I could cry
right now talking about it because I
hate it and I would cry and I would say
or change I don't know why I'm doing
this and I just kept reading scriptures
and can't worshipping and asking him to
deliver me and and so there was times
where that that Damon when it would
manifest it was like the other ones
would try to come back and torment me
because of the fault that I've done the
sin but I done and the other ones that
would try to come back is you're not
worthless to money smoke kill yourself
because I was a cutter growing up I had
I would just I have one scar left where
I would just cut on myself and I believe
God left me that because he really
delivered me and set me free and uh but
those demons would come back and torment
me like you're the worst mother ever
ever you're the worst person you know
you're you're not a real Christian and
and I would just I would just think to
myself if my daughter if I didn't have a
daughter I would kill myself and and
then I would get on my knees and I would
go back to how I did when I got free
from drugs and when I needed to stay
free and so I just worship and I said
Lord you gave me an example in Luke
where there was a man that cut on
himself he was naked he would eat I mean
he stayed in a cave you know he was
without no hope and I have hope now I
have you I should be seeing your power
in this area and I got on my knees and
and I would open it up and I would read
that scripture now say my lord I'm
expecting you to deliver me like you did
that man and I've done this several
times before I saw the manifestation of
the deliverance and and I would tell my
pastor I would confess it or you know I
didn't really I didn't really trust a
lot of people so I didn't just tell my
business to people but or his wife you
know I could confide certain things in
his wife and he just
me cetera he said you can't make it
happen you're just gonna have to keep
obeying the Lord and I do obey he's
gonna manifest John 14:21 the first I
used before and so he said just make
sure you repent every time you don't you
know because I wasn't he knew I wasn't
looking forward to it he knew my fruit
like I didn't keep aught against people
I didn't gossip I didn't carry that
spirit around of trying to put others
down you know what I'm saying
and so I remember I was in a service I
was in a we had a women's fellowship and
the anointing came so strong in that
service and I believe that's why it's so
important for disciples of Christ to
keep fellowship with one another and in
a corporate setting or the anointing
because you never know what God's gonna
do you know and so I was in that service
and the anointing came as one of the
women was thinking and I heard the Holy
Spirit he said go get on your knees and
worship Me so I went up front and I just
started worshiping him on my knees and
all of a sudden I felt this demon and I
knew it was a demon I felt I felt him
come and it was during that time that I
had been crying out to Lord to deliver
me I mean I would do fasting there
praying because I wanted this thing gone
and it came from the top of my feet from
that from my feet all the way up through
my body
and I felt it leave and when I felt it
leave I just started crying so thankful
and I knew it was gone Derrick I can't
explain it too but I knew it was gone
and I thought the next time I get mad
because there's that person you can get
mad and seeing 9 the Bible says so this
was different this was not just getting
that this work something I would go
through and get in a rage
yeah and it would manifest I thought
well next time I get mad or get upset
I'm gonna see is this really gone cuz I
don't care how much you say you're set
free wait so the test comes then you can
see are you free yet you don't I'm
saying because a lot of people say that
I'm free I'm free we'll wait till the
test comes and then you can see and
because Jesus said you know the ones
that are they built their house right
when the storms come they want
shakin and so a test came and of course
that week I mean it wasn't no time and
when my daughter said something or done
something because it was usually with
her it's always with the people you're
closest to most of the time you know or
my sister or somebody and so I just I
just sit there like as soon as it
happened I was like I couldn't even
respond in anger and it treat me out
like you know at first because I thought
wow I'm not even I'm not even angry and
the more and I've seen especially in the
last couple of years maybe three years I
have seen more when I do when something
normally would just make me mad I would
see me just respond the Holy Spirit said
now listen down in your spirit don't
respond out of anger
and the more you yield to the Holy
Spirit gratifying the things of God if
the Holy Spirit and of his love the more
he's gonna manifest and I believe that
the more you keep your mind on this
world and the things of this world and
what you go through and what you don't
have what this person is doing what
you're not doing right you're keeping
your mom even on yourself
it takes you away from being able to
gratify the Holy Spirit one test comes
you know what I'm saying because your
minds already in a place of carnality
and darkness and so when the test comes
that's your immediate response and so
I've seen the more that I meditate on
his love on the cross and I meditate on
on things above and I'm truly every
morning spend time with him first thing
in the morning it's different it's
different and I remember my daughter
telling me and when she told me when you
have people around you that tell you
you're different then you know you're
different and she said you know mom she
said you're different she said you're
not grown in your teeth anymore you're
not and she didn't know what it was you
know she's 14 now
but I had to explain to her and I sat
down with her and I repented and I said
I'm so sorry for all the times that I
spoke in anger that I said things that
wasn't right I threw things I said that
is not Christianity Mikayla because I
didn't want her to get the perception of
well because my mom does this she does
all this good over here
and she ministers that like she could
grow up without and think it's okay and
cuz it's not and I remember the first
time I started laughing like I never
used to smile I never used to hardly
last and before I even got delivered
from that anger devil and I call it an
anger devil it was the demon I remember
I started laughing like for the first
time in my walk with the Lord like that
week and I remember her dad saying wow
you you had something's different about
you and the third time like he got out
of prison he was in my car ridin and he
said he just kept looking at me and I
thought it must have stopped looking at
me like that because I already know I
said I you can forget about and he said
now he said that's not the reason why
I'm looking at you he said I just want
to tell you that there's something
different about you that I've never seen
before
and so I believed you know when you live
by faith and according to the word
you're going to be developed it's not
just all at once you know
but I do also know that the more you
come to Jesus and the more you let him
rule you because when he said in Matthew
6:33 to seek first his kingdom
that's his rule over us you know and his
righteousness and all things will be
added you know when you're seeking first
is ruling you're giving him permission
from your heart Lord I give you
permission to rule me to have your way
in my life the more he's going to do
that the more he's going to cultivate
you the more he's going to develop you
and and you know I tell my sisters in
the Lord that I helped now I'm like
don't don't rush through the tests don't
try to change in your strength because
you can't you
first Peter 5:5 through 11 that's one of
my favorites that really helped
cultivate me in when I would carry cares
about myself and about things I couldn't
change with myself or my daughter or
people around me that I really really
love that are still on on dope you know
what I'm saying shooting up they're
still on heroin and I've seen I'm raised
from the dead that's a whole nother
testimony that God used me in I couldn't
carry the care and so but I began to
read first Peter 5 5 through 11 almost
every day for a while and one of the
keys is that cue millet II and when you
cast your care it's not saying you're
not gonna get the care anymore or you're
not going to have to be developed when
you cast your care on him then he begins
the process of developing you to grow
you through it about the Holy Ghost you
know what I'm saying
and then he says what you have suffered
a while then what will he do he will
establish us you know strengthen us and
I believe that the beauty that you see
in your growth with him responding with
him letting the new nature in you live
out through you and and it being truly
an intimate relationship like it is
between a husband and a wife
because we're the Bride of Christ then
you see that it's not only about your
works you know what I'm saying but it's
really about the Union and how much he
loves you you know and and so and he's
changing me more and more and and to me
it's it's one of the most beautiful
things in life is to really be intimate
with Jesus and to really love him you
know and there's no way I could love him
if he didn't love me first and to really
love him more and so I just love it
comes down to man a beautiful story Tara
thank you for coming on and hanging out
with me go ahead and plug some of your
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follow you
I know you got some Facebook stuff out
there you go live on Facebook all the
time sharing with people then whenever
you're ministering you go to a lot of
different places to minister as well and
you go live doing that share out some of
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check out some of you work yeah I would
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and I do do live services especially on
Sunday nights I don't get to do a lot of
live services like when I'm doing
outreach or I do outreach I'm actually
over the outreach team at juices the
into church ordained minister got
ordained a few years ago as an
evangelist so I love to see the lost
state so if you need to be saved if you
need to be encouraged to be discipled
you know I would go on YouTube Tara
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I'm with Jesus this answer church their
pastor Robert scales and so the teaching
you know and everything that I teach I
teach from the word and you're just
going to get the raw uncut Word of God
but my going to prisons every single
week and administer the word of truth we
like I said outreach ministry very
hands-on we see hundreds it's not
thousands most of the time per year come
to Christ one on one on the streets of
through Middle Tennessee Lebanon
Nashville Tennessee
like he said that's you can tell by my
accent but that's where I'm from right
outside Nashville Tennessee and I'm on
Instagram I haven't really promoted much
of that but I am on instagram at Sara
Lee and as well or extravagant love do
you know Angie Duncan have you heard of
that name she's from Nashville I have
not okay I had her on the show probably
two years ago Angie Duncan she was that
ex-porn star and uh she's a part of she
has a ministry in Nashville I believe it
is he said Nashville and Knoxville but
it's out Hosea's heart ministry I don't
know if you ever heard of that a lot of
prostitutes and stuff like that people
are doing
heck yeah so if there's somebody
listening and and they're going through
something and they've tried everything
else but Jesus would you like to pray
for them to see if Jesus would lighten
their load or become the help that they
need before we learn yeah absolutely
I just want to tell you you know it's
not by your works that you get saved and
a lot of times I tell people that you
don't have to try to change to come to
Jesus
to go to church you know once you get
the real Jesus Christ of Nazareth he
starts the good work in you and so I
just want to encourage you to call on
his name out of the pure and sincere
heart he will manifest he will meet you
and so I'll just pray with you right now
Holy Spirit I thank you I should have
come now Lord anybody under the sound of
my voice
father I'm asking you that the Holy
Spirit will draw them to you that nobody
can come to Jesus itself through the
Holy Spirit so Holy Spirit I thank you
for manifesting I thank you Lord that
your love is greater than anything that
they go through I thank you Father that
you have finished the work through Jesus
Christ Lord just say this with me say
Lord Jesus I truly believe with all my
heart that you're the Son of God and I
believe that when you died on the cross
you took all my sins away and I believe
that because of God's great love when
you died for me you traded places with
me and God's power raised Jesus from the
dead
Lord Jesus I repent today of my sin and
I'm turning to believe on you come in my
heart Lord and save me
and change me and give me eternal life I
forgive myself and I forgive every
person that's ever hurt me Lord from
this day forward I give you my heart to
follow you to do God's real and choose
this name amen amen
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thanks for coming on hanging out with me
it's been awesome Tara thank you so much
man I enjoyed it I would never say it
all right god bless all right you too
awesome
amen amen
good story man God has a way of shedding
light in the midst of darkness no matter
how deep or how dark it can be very
similar situations and stuff as she's
talking about like just because she kind
of got into church who came to Jesus or
whatever everything didn't go away
there's still you know depression
there's like you look in that mirror man
sometimes those phoom those familiar
spirits who have been with you your
whole life they they like to talk
sometimes and they like to kind of
question you and stuff and when I when I
came to Christ and we came back to
Christ in 2000 you know there was a
bunch of stuff that left me man I was in
like really deep witchcraft and got into
some crazy stuff but a lot of stuff left
instantly when I came when I came to him
but over the time like over a period of
time some things had to fall off and
some stuff was a process and some stuff
you had to close the door to she's
talking about that anger those fits of
rage and stuff and so I'm really big on
fruit she's talking about judging men by
the fruit so Jesus says the judge meant
by the fruit
fruit is the fruit of the Holy Spirit we
can tell that a person is spending time
with God because of the fruit that they
produce in their life and the Bible
gives gives us an outline of the fruit
of the Holy Spirit but it also gives us
what's called the fruit of the flesh and
that's essentially the stuff that you
produce if you're not walking in the
spirit and some of it is anger
bitterness jealousy fits of rage all of
these things and it's the opposite of
the fruit of the Spirit and I've been
there like as a Christian as someone's
come out of this tremendous darkness and
into the glorious light of Christ I've
had those fits of anger I've had those
feelings of just anger rising up within
me and punching holes in the wall and I
remember trying to wreck me and my wife
off the road you know as a Christian
grabbing the steering wheel and just
trying to make it go on a ditch just
crazy stuff and I had to go through
one-on-one personal deliverance where I
had to go through and deal with
generational curses things that you know
I did not know was there that were still
influencing me the fact you know that
didn't have a father doors that were
still open things I was entertaining and
even as a Christian I had to go through
these deliverance classes man in
sessions and it changed my life like it
really worked and after that like
totally different so it's one thing just
to kind of say a prayer and come to God
but you have to deal with with some of
the stuff that's business and she was a
kid a lot of it leaves instantly a lot
of it does but um but there is some some
root stuff that comes along and those
demons don't play fair you know she's
talking about those demons leaving I've
had my battles with my own inner demons
and we still do right I think they're
sitting here for a reason and for season
2 to make us like Jesus to make us like
Christ so that we all can you know I'm
saying come to that knowledge and glory
of who he is and have his work
transformed within us and a lot of
people you know we talk about a lot you
know being thankful for the further
demons and thankful that we went through
these experiences and encounters because
we wouldn't be the people that we are
day without those those demons and
they're sitting here for a reason
I truly believe that talking about the
the lotus flower that is that that
blooms in the in the midst of of mud of
something seems nasty and disgusting but
the lotus flower blooms in the mud and
it's in in those places that where fruit
doesn't grow on top of the the mountain
top fruit grows down in the valley so
it's so so powerful to to hear the work
that God is doing in people's hearts and
everybody has their own story
everybody's so different and so it's
it's beautiful if we're coming up I say
we're coming up on if you're listening
live the 100th episode will be released
next week we RepA sowed 100 on the true
seeker podcast excited about that but
also those of you guys who are listening
on the podcast and you've probably have
already heard episode 100 it's just the
way it kind of comes out so yeah I'm
excited
100 episodes in and talked to some
amazing people so much fruit I go back
and like the majority of these shows are
good like most of the ones like I go
back in and listen to interviews that I
forgot I did man and they were just like
gems man so so much knowledge so much
wisdom in some of these episodes and and
and people's encounters that they've
been through so the Alonzo Pichardo
episode I shared that out yesterday on
Facebook man that was a powerful episode
listening to his story and talking about
some of the intricate workings man go
back and listen to that one if you guys
haven't it's called mental alchemy it's
in the archives whatever platform you're
listening to this on it's in the
archives Alonzo Pichardo mental alchemy
that was a good story man so many of
them I've talked to some really cool
people reflecting on these hundred
episodes you know what I may do an
episode I may do I may do a reflection
episode and I probably
we'll do an episode where I just look
back on each episode and give commentary
I don't know how long that would be if I
gave a commentary on a hundred episodes
I'm sure I can go through and just maybe
just say a few words about each one and
just do an overview and maybe point out
some of the best ones and and be candid
it with it too and tell you the ones
that I you know that went wrong and
where I am now with these people some of
those episodes man I'm not cool with
those people anymore I've had some
people who have come on the show and
they've you know threatened to to sue me
some people have told their fan base to
come come against me I've gotten death
threats from people who were on this on
the podcast yes
I've had all that I've had friends who I
thought would come on the show and then
they've done sent death threats out on
me so maybe I'll do an episode now that
we're at 100 where I just go and do just
a commentary on all of them and maybe
that would be be cool Adams in the
chatroom he says just do a best clips
video collection yeah I need help with
that man I need some people who are
internet savvy who can help me make
clips out of some of this stuff because
a lot of people don't have time to
listen to a good you know to our podcast
when I want to have podcast but if it's
a four minute clip or three minute clip
they'll listen to it and some of the
clips you know unlike YouTube and stuff
they get a lot of it gets a lot more
reach than the full episode you know so
I like to make clips and stuff but if
anybody wants to help me with that I do
need help promoting the podcast making
clips Chris says I got lots of time I
bro if you got a computer let me know
you can even do a lot of this stuff with
your phone man so I'll get with you on
that Chris said I've heard all of them
Chris has heard all the podcasts that
blows me away to that people have
listened to every podcast coming up on a
hundred now you know people have
listened to everyone every people have
been there with me on this journey like
from nothing maybe not many people from
the beginning but a lot of people who
have come back you know what I'm saying
over over time and then they
done the research and listen to all the
episodes so that's really cool I know
Chris is the truck driver to set out to
other truck drivers out there because
they consume probably the majority of
the podcast those people who are driving
or on their commute to work and stuff so
that's really cool I want to thank
everybody as well as just for holding me
down over the past good year that I've
just been going strong now for almost a
year probably and we've gained so much
leeway man there's so many supporters
people coming out the woodwork being
consistent you know what I'm saying
creating community friends there's these
names when you guys are commenting in
the chat I love to see house names pop
up I consider you guys family consider
you guys friends so thank you guys for
holding me down tonight for you guys
listening listening live I have to that
there's that disconnect of when this
comes out live and then when it comes
out on the podcast end but Thursday
nights tonight today's Thursday we're
doing a school isn't mystics make sure
you guys join that that has been really
good learning how to prophesy learning
how to hear the voice of the Holy Spirit
in our own lives and then speak it out
for others as well so good man I'm
enjoying us so much mom all ste arise I
know us butchered that name but says
it's important for people to share their
stories no matter where they leave
things yep exactly
that's why I told I said I'm not afraid
of your story you know what I have
people who won't come on the podcast a
lot of Christians who won't come on the
show because one dude said he didn't
want to talk about the Illuminati like
me neither talk about the Illuminati is
so you know you know I don't talk about
the Illuminati that at all you
know I'm you have any revelation we are
the alumina luminaries the true
illuminated ones with the light of
Christ going out into the world
illuminating the darkness but uh yeah
some people they stay far away from me
but for good reason because if they've
you know they come on this show then
they their fan base and their audience
thinks they're
signing you know what I'm saying a
cosign in my work and uh you know it's
so funny that even a lot of people who
don't who see us you know doing this
stuff and then the their fan base
follows and I've had personal talks with
Christians about that I talked to seven
you know I interviewed seven and a lot
of his fan base checks me out and then
they go back to him with questions or
whatever from watching this show and but
I think the disclaimers at the beginning
this isn't a Christian show you know
it's not a Christian show it's just we
talked to everyone so Luke trying to get
to some of these questions here the
phone lines are open too we haven't had
calls in a while but the phone lines are
open
um big boy or yeah big boy seven one
seven says is is it going to be live on
YouTube the School of the Mystics School
of the Mystics to get accesses for
patrons it's just it's it's not going to
be live it's it's a one of the perks of
supporting what I'm doing here even if
you can only afford a dollar a dollar
get you access to that but uh no it's
gonna be on a private thing school of
the mystic so you signed up you'll get
an email alert when we go live and you
can watch it on your phone or you can do
it from your home computer it's really
good I'm enjoying it lanes world you
have a great show man keep it up brother
you encouraged us all much love thank
you so much house dog what up Derek much
love from Ohio much love Danny my
brother Danny says Jesus said in the
book of Revelation I will give you the
Morningstar oh yeah Lucifer is a title
man you mentioned Lucifer being a did
you know I guess the Illuminati or the
Light Bearer you know it's a title you
know I threw people off in a song and I
made those some of you guys off when I
talk about how we are their true
Illuminati or we are the true
Luciferians
that word means light bringer it doesn't
mean one who worships Lucifer Lucifer is
not in it's not a deity Lucifer is a
title the bright and Morning Star one
who brings light the Light Bearer I bear
the light I don't know about you guys I
hope you do you should bear the light so
we would
about the definition of the word yeah
that's what it is we're the true
Illuminati we are the true light bearers
the early Christians were called the
illuminated ones there's so many
scriptures about being illuminated with
the light of Christ it's funny memory
through here's some more lane says I
have to I have to get into the archives
there's some good shows on there man
like I said I'm gonna do an overview
podcast where I just give commentary
because there's some gems man from
people you guys have never heard of they
don't I mean obviously the big names get
get all the views so Jordan Maxwell's
the Santos penalties the sevens like
those guys get a lot of views on the
podcast but sometimes man it's from the
little no-name guys Chris Barse and
homey in chat right now that was a
powerful episode the Dano episode like
there's some good stuff Lane says which
podcast app works with your show all of
them do and if you go to the website
just go to true seeker com there'll be a
pop-up that comes once you click one of
the episodes and it says subscribe on
Android or subscribe on iTunes and it'll
suggest podcast apps for you on your
phone whichever you have but if you have
an iPhone obviously the iPhone it
actually comes with and like an iTunes
app so somebody says people get lost
people get lost in the title yeah but
yeah I think one of the better ones
maybe a pot o matic is one stitcher some
people listen a lot of people listen on
what is it
stitcher and then Spotify
I'm also on soundcloud I'm on all of
them but it's just whatever ones you
like like whatever you like best all of
them are cool I guess not all of them
some of them like will automatically
start playing random random other
podcasts that's one thing about stitcher
I was listening to the stitcher for a
while and then a different podcast will
come on that I'm not subscribed to I
didn't really like that I rather you
play the next
episode or a previous episode alright
let's go to some more lane says I watch
on YouTube yeah obviously I like the
YouTube because I put a lot of work into
the aesthetic the lighting you know what
I'm saying all the images the scene
transitions intros all that kind of
stuff so YouTube looks cool but
definitely subscribe on a podcast end as
well that's where the stats really
counting matter and then so Martineau's
I know I'm saying I'm just gonna say a
riot says yup it's what we do with the
info that matters many concepts have
been redirected and the power is in
taking them back yep exactly
every everything has been stolen I mean
there's nothing there's nothing new
Under the Sun everything's borrowed even
the stuff in Christianity and like the
Hebrews and stuff they borrowed a lot of
that stuff from the Egyptians and for
the from the Sumerians and Phoenicians
and stuff like they took their the way
they built their their temples and
structures and stuff came from the other
nations you know the way they built the
Ark of the Covenant and the way that
looks that was taken from Egypt man like
all of this stuff so it's about the
spirit of it taking it back and seeing
what it really means Adam says what I
find it interesting is that the Bible
tries to to let us hate Lucifer the
Bible tries to let us hate the light so
much symbolism in the Bible I wouldn't
say that the Bible teaches that I think
that's just like a preconceived notion
from what teachers have told us for
years they've told us that Lucifer was
the devil be afraid of the devil
the light bringer who brings the false
light of whatever the enemy of God but
when it stores only mentioned one time
in the Bible that's the thing that word
is only mentioned once and when it's
mentioned it's not talking about an
entity it's a title talking about the
king of Babylon that would fall like the
bright and morning star which is Venus
it's Venus which is the brightest star
or planet essentially in the morning
Scott and in the morning sky right
before the Sun rises and
happens when the Sun rises Venus is cast
out of heaven and the Sun rises to take
its glory and it's way in its rightful
place yep
Isaiah 14 Danni he posts on their cool
the one I use this pod beam I think pod
beam is cool yeah and you're not on it
I'll get I'm not on pod beam really I
think I am yeah I think I am look again
I think I am all right Christy hey
Christy Christy folks says I'm just
wondering brother not judging just
asking were you baptized under Matthew
29 or agz I'm assuming you you're just
you're talking about um in the name of
Jesus or in oh you're baptized in the
name of the Father Son and Holy Spirit I
think it was I think it was probably all
of them I try to cover all of them when
I when I do baptisms I uh I say in the
name of the Father Son and the Holy
Spirit in the name of Jesus or the name
of Yeshua mashiac or Shia Ben Oh hiya
you know what I'm saying that one of the
many beautiful Hebrew names on for Jesus
so I try to use them all not not have to
cover them all you know what I'm saying
blaspheme the Holy Spirit opinions bash
him and the Holy Spirit is is deep I
mean because it's talking about you
would think that um jump it back to
Christy I know I'm jumping up so Christy
says the name not the titles yeah so the
name is so the name there Christy that
the name isn't the pronunciation or
Jesus that's not his name his name's not
Jesus Yeshua Yeshua Yeshua your ha was
shot like there's a bunch of different
debates on the name but the name is the
character the character in the likeness
all who call upon the name of the Lord
shall be saved
it's not talking about getting the
pronunciation right as people always say
when you say Jesus you're calling on
Zeus all of these things right it's not
about the name it's about the character
the character that they bring because
that's what a name is especially in
Hebrew tradition they were named after
feelings and emotions and concept
Michael Michael Ellis god we look at the
elves raphael uriel elohim L of God so
it's like God has smiled upon me god is
my salvation Emmanuelle God is with us
so it's it's all all of this this this
embodiment is the name is then key the
character God has many names he is a
higher Bahasa Messiah in the Hebrew
which means I am that I am and I will be
whatsoever I will be it's very powerful
he's essentially saying I'll be whatever
you need me to be I'm everything you
looking at the plants outside I'm in
them you're looking at your neighbor I'm
in him you're looking at your trials and
tribulations I'm in that you're looking
at the demons I'm in that I'm in all of
it and so when you really come to that
River that that revelation understanding
it gets a lot more interesting because
you're not like saying okay God is here
or God is there or God is in the air no
Jesus is all he creates the good and
evil you know just like it's not just
all the good stuff man he's in it all
and that that's the beauty of being able
to see God in all we don't know what his
name was that's what someone's it's in
the book says okay so going back to the
blaspheming the Holy Spirit blaspheming
the Holy Spirit is essentially get a
calling it's the unpardonable sin is
what it says but it it's giving Satan
credit for the work that God is doing a
lot of people turn that around and
they'll say it and so a lot of church
people will say they mean it that way
but they give God credit for the work
that Satan has done there's a difference
this is what many church people do now
so they may say they may see a healing
take place on the street there's a lot
of people who do Reiki they have they
don't use the name Jesus they're not
Christians
they're Reiki healers they're healing
people people are getting healed through
that power and they said well you know
the devil healed them the devil healed
that person this is what they say
because they didn't say in Jesus name I
have
to Reiki practitioners and healings
healers and their Christians but they
don't use the terminology and lingo that
we can use if we want to and so there's
a form of it where they give Satan the
glory for the work that God has done if
any anything good comes from above so if
somebody's healed that's a good thing
right that's how most people in the
church realm would would call it but for
for in the scripture under scriptural
reference it's um it's somebody it's the
same thing Jesus healing people casting
out demons even give a reference to
Solomon in that whole chapter Matthew 12
my students have chapter 12 and then
also and going through 14 a little bit
it's given the devil glory for the work
that God has done so Jesus cast out
demons in a Cell you know all the way
you did that is because your demon to
you you know and I've heard people say
that kind of stuff it's insane but uh
it's essentially what it's talking about
is Jesus himself performing miracles and
casting out demons and they said they
don't know he did it by the power of
Beelzebub be so bub which is the Prince
of demons for giving the devil credit
whatever you want to say which that's
two different entities so Adam says yes
it's all about the elves Christy says oh
my god never heard it explained like
this before Adam says the church makes
people think that Lucifer is the devil
in the Bible is misunderstood and
translated incorrectly definitely I
don't know if well I guess it's about I
guess it's miss translator you have to
you have to break down a Greek in Hebrew
man to see who's being talked about you
know even when the word God is being
used like you have to you have to look
that stuff up and it it is simplistic
you can read it and just get the
exoteric very outer court stuff you need
for the day out of it and there's that
realm but when you're trying to get a
fullness of an understanding of what
everything's talking about you really do
have to go to the Greek in Hebrew
I mean it uses the word God over and
over and over and over again like God it
uses God for talking about angels Yahweh
demons it's all types of stuff multiple
gods you have to break it down and see
what they're talking about it uses one
word in the English but you don't know
how to translate it unless you go back
to the Greek and Hebrew it's really
interesting let's see what we got here
the power of 13b beseech Lord of lords
is meaning the Lord of flies you have
the word Lord as well that's just a
title you know when you we would call
God Lord or pray to the Lord
or whatever it's a title as well but
it's the title of year it's a title in
your life it's a title that you give
them many people know him as Savior but
they don't know him as Lord right
Cristina says I guess I never understood
Lucifer the word or the name yeah go
back and read it and even get you a
dictionary here's how you get the
understand and get you a dictionary and
look up the word Lucifer or look up the
word Venus they're interchangeable
because the word Lucifer is a reference
to Venus the Light Bearer the bright and
Morning Star
what is the bright and morning slight
literally if you're else these are a
bunch of stargazers guys these guys were
into astrology it's not bad the end -
Astro theology it's not bad they say
it's written the whole thing is written
off of astrobiology yeah because it's
telling his story selling Jesus a story
played out in the stars why do you think
the stargazers were the first ones to
show up at the betta the birth of Jesus
the star gazer showed up with gifts
because they followed the Stars to his
birth they read his story written out in
the stars from the beginning it's
telling his story so yeah when I
entertained Astro theology that's why
because it's talking about him some
people they get it twisted
you know the Bible is all Astro theology
yeah telling his story
so yeah let's see here that's about it
yeah dude it do the knowledge it's all
you know it's astrology 101 just look up
the words in it because everything's
titles you know even even Immanuel God
with us like this all dis titles alright
Danny says if you look at Exodus it's a
symbolic story of God I am bringing us
out of Egypt sin and the Pharaoh the
devil and the new land which is Christ
we are his this temple yep
100% I remember when I came to that
revelation without without umm nobody
telling me that you know what I'm saying
well you're just reading and and the
Holy Spirit tells you you know tells you
hey this is you my what you're in
fellowship with the Holy Spirit reading
the Bible and he tells you who the
interpretations are as you're reading it
and it just blows your bozo mind bro
blow Jomon to understand that the
allegory behind it and that it when I
reading about the Prince of Egypt when I
reading about Pharaoh and ba-ba-ba-ba
we're reading about us or reading our
story not his story but our story it's
written of in those scriptures in those
words it's telling our story now where
that where that story starts maybe
that's debatable maybe it starts at
birth maybe it starts after awakening
because you have to be awake to
interpret it you really do read first
Corinthians it first Corinthians chapter
2 it says that the carnal mind cannot
understand the scriptures that you have
to be awakened illuminated to the light
of Christ to even understand it y'all
letting these people interpret eight the
scriptures to y'all who are not awakened
who have no idea what the hell Jesus is
they laugh and scoff at the concept of
being born again and you're letting them
break the scriptures down to you be
careful guys it's talking about you
looking at myself and watching the work
I'm the life yep
it's awesome bro Danny says yet read
Psalm 78 it says all the stories of
Exodus in the whole wilderness were
parables and riddles
that their fathers told them I'm gonna
look at that while we're on the podcast
cuz I don't know that Scripture by heart
but you say if you know the exact verse
let me know so I'm gonna look it up
because I know it says it in um I'd like
to know if that's in there because I
haven't read that what did you say just
wilderness because it is actually is in
Ephesians
org or Galatians I believe it is okay
Wow let's see some maybe some idiot
okay there's a bunch of calm commentary
on it but I'm trying to find a ton of
fun and this is I know this makes for
bad listening and bad dead air all right
Psalm 78 we learned in people I'm
learning he just says that right there
in the beginning of the verse okay we go
to the King James
okay give ear all my people to my law
incline your ears to the words of my
mouth I will open my mouth in a parable
I will utter dark sayings of old it's
exactly what they are dark sayings are
riddles and I'm sure that I'm sure you
read that in another version it actually
says riddles right which we have heard
and known and our fathers have told us
we would not hide them from their
children showing to the generations to
come the praises of the Lord in his
strength and the wonderful works that he
has done but yeah so Danny says yep I
guess he read it in another version let
me read it in the NIV if I can find it
fast enough without
doing a bad show my people here my
teaching listen to the words of my mouth
I will open my mouth with a parable I
will utter hidden things from the things
of all things we have not known okay a
lot of different words I'm pretty sure
riddles in there because that's what
that's what dark sayings are there I
mean it's how Jesus taught Jesus taught
in parables and it could how did he he
learned it from the parables so that's a
good one man I thank you for showing me
that because I never even knew that one
there's one um let me see I think king
of single Asians you guys listening so
that was a good one Psalm 78 speaking
about allegories in the Bible being a
riddle and being about you things like
that so Galatians 4 24 this is it here
we go I'm a sudden nineteen I guess my
little children of whom I travail in
birth again until Christ be formed in
you I desire to be present with you now
and changed my voice for I stand in
doubt of you tell me he that desire to
be under the law do you not hear the law
for it is written that Abraham had two
sons one by a bondmaid other by the free
woman but he who was of the bondwoman
was born after the flesh but he of the
freewoman was by the promise which is
the spirit write two covenants Old
Covenant in the new of 24 which things
are in allegory which things are an
allegory for these things are two
covenants one from the Mount Sinai want
which ginger Esteban and which is egg
also it's speaking about these these
things represented something there's a
saying that it's the the Old Testament
is the New Testament sealed in the
newest the old revealed unto you so you
get a lot of the hidden meanings in the
New Testament that you don't get in like
a written format while you're reading
them now I'm going to try to see what
this this Hebrew
concordance says about the word allegory
here alright I just said allegory it
comes from a word that means uh yeah it
doesn't let's see okay so it doesn't
really go into a lotta it's probably a
Latin word though honestly especially
cuz it's in the New Testament had to
look up the Latin word but yeah it's an
allegory it's not telling his story it's
not talking about King David and King
Saul fighting and all of this kind of
stuff
some are you fighting your King Saul
that lives in you and lives in your mind
and and of these idols and these golden
calves that you have to turn your nose
to and remember like like this episode
tiara Tara was talking about wanting to
go back to her cigarette addiction like
that's our golden calf the alcohol that
calls out to her that's the other
nations that are in camping around you
trying to get you to slip trying to cut
your head off that's who that is that's
these different things in our lives as
we as we read the scriptures and if you
break down their names we're talking
about the names and breaking them down
break down the names of the other
nations that were coming against the
children of Israel break down their
names and you'll find out that their
names are about our names of like
strongholds and principalities and they
represent like doubt and fear and
unbelief in your life come on guys we're
not taught this stuff but this is 100%
and once you approach it from that level
it's not to say that it didn't exist I
wasn't there I don't know I can't say
that it didn't but I know that the way
it's written in code and in allegory
that the word in Scripture is sharper
than any two-edged sword that is able to
the divide between the bone and the
marrow and the tendons and the really
deep issues of the heart as you read
those scriptures you'll be holding as a
man looking into the mirror you're
reading about yourself it's very
powerful is is the the word is alive
those scriptures are all alive they're
definitely God inspired and God breathed
don't let anyone tell you anything there
friend don't let anybody talk to you out
of that it's powerful with that being
said I hope y'all got something out of
this episode I really enjoyed speaking
with her I loved hearing her story and
how she's uh following her truths and
she's following Christ and making he's
making all things new in her life and
she's being able to be sent back to the
same people that she came from you know
the people who were struggling with
addiction and people who were into that
that type of lifestyle she's going back
to those people she didn't just forget
about him she goes back to him with the
light of Christ so yeah so arrghh says
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