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Sometimes I feel like Im a million miles away from you
And why would you come around when i think about selfish things that I put you through and
I think im lost within my doubt and insecurities
deep In the fog of my dismay all Im looking for is sympathy
sitting up in darkness I harness your positive energy fill me
never turn your back please heal me never let them kill me
the real me just wants to be in your presence and in your healing
feeling, that I’m all alone by myself God I know you hear me
Rejected and restless, frustrated and Im neglected
I try to be optimistic, take the worry and doubt and lift it
crying out for your mercy and searching just for my purpose
Im anguished and horrified with one question now was it worth it? (yeah)
I need you more right now then I even have throughout my life
My souls in constant darkness, I deal with so much strife
How I wish that you were near, that you would take my fear
remove the hopelessness and and please GOD make it dissappear
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How I wish that you were here to give me everything I want
But I know that life’s unfair and we can’t always have it all
Whoa, whoa, I wish that you were here
So I pray you hold me draw me closely and please dont disown me
I wanna be real I wanna be near so long ive felt so phony
emotions mess with my head, depression leaves me for dead
what will it take for you to belieeeeeeve, all of the words that Ive said
Ive seen better days, A hypocrite in so many ways
this lifes a constant change subconcious through this constant phase
But I know these notions mean nothing
through these trials and pains I keep running
lookin back and I see them still coming
and it makes no sense to run from it
Its like a cat and dog are fighting deep inside my brain
If you do not let them out Im almost ceartin that Ill go insane ahhh
This fame playing with my mind,its messing with me all the time
Our histroy is a mystery and thats a thorn within my siiide
bring me back to solace and bring me back to your promise
cause I know that ive played the judas and doubted you just like Thomas
and im batteling these deceiving demons, but I know im here for a reason,
wait for the change of the seasons, you give me hope to believe in
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How I wish that you were here to give me everything I want
But I know that life’s unfair and we can’t always have it all
Whoa, whoa, I wish that you were here